#it's funny bc when my aunt passed on New Year's in 2019 it was exactly two weeks after the 1st anniversary date rolled around. always has

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said a prayer for Jjong today.

#shinee #jonghyun #idk i don't usually yk. do things like that for people that have passed but it's been six years and it felt fitting somehow #six years ago i was what. 12 about to turn 13???? had already been to a fair bit of funerals but the only ones that had hit me before #this one were the pianist at our church who passed away suddenly from a heart attack and the regional club leader who had cancer #for like three years and passed just as the doctors thought she would go into remission #and those both happened around October/November so. going into the winter season has always been hard for me and Jjong #was no different. #it's gotten better slowly but it still hurts sometimes. some days i wake up and i can't even look at any of his pictures other days #i get up and put his albums on loop and laugh and reblog so many of his antics #it's funny bc when my aunt passed on New Year's in 2019 it was exactly two weeks after the 1st anniversary date rolled around. always has #been but i never noticed until we lost her and we had to go down for the funeral and i basically disappeared off the internet for a good #two to four months sans queue and checking in on Discord and sh*t and that year he managed to keep me sane. sounds f*cked up #but that year it was just me and Spotify and my playlists and Jjong's voice amid it all. i wish i could meet him and tell him in person #that he practically saved my life even tho the fandom was still raw af from losing him but the prayer will have to be enough #you did well Jjong. you worked so hard. you are our pride. love you to the moon and back 🌒🌙 <333