#its like ok i dont mind failing LM FAO

[ruffgem]

im actually like giving up so hard rn its crazy like i know its normal for everyone to be burnt out at the end of the semester after break but i literally did nothing all day in class today, skipped my film lecture for two weeks in a row now, havent started the fucking presentation for my senior thesis NOR have i made nearly enough art for it, havent started my painting final, and also i have a film essay due at midnight thats currently a totally shit draft and im just like ummm idk i dont care i dont know how to care. i just want to lay down. draw a funny guy maybe. on the one hand its kind of awesome because i promised myself i would try not to people-please as much this year but on the other hand its lowkey scary becasue i feel like im losing the only thing that actually motivates me to do things in an academic setting (fear lmfao)

#at least i did my comic #i am excelling in one (1) class #sry for this long ass vent post im making it because im procrastinating the video essay that makes me want 2 throw up when i think abt how #much its going to suck to edit #its worth 15 percent of my grade but that thought isnt even striking fear into my heart anymore #its like ok i dont mind failing LM FAO #help...............