#its not even that unfounded of a fear ive been threatened with knives 3 seperate times at that pub over the past 3 years

[shakedog]

I have A Feeling something really really bad is going to happen to me I dont believe in angel numbers or numerology but I keep seeing patterns and having the same nightmare where I get stabbed on the pub dancefloor and die laughing in a puddle of blood back against the bathroom door while my bestest friend holds his red flannel over the wound and yells at me to calm down stop laughing stop laughing

#i mean yea i have a diagnosed psychosis but lately i think the line between my usual symptoms and those of paranoid schizophrenia #have really started to blur #every time he wears that red flannel i genuinely think well ok this is the day i die #its not even that unfounded of a fear ive been threatened with knives 3 seperate times at that pub over the past 3 years #also i have the same kind of hyperrealistic nightmares where someone breaks into my house and kills me in my bed #that probably stem from my ex dealer trying to break into my apartment with a knife last year while high on god knows what #i had to call the cops they shot him w a rubber bullet n he didnt even seem to notice it?? like those things can break ur ribs n he just #kept running #took them 15min to catch him #still see him around sometimes bc his mom lives on my block #im so scared lol lol lol