#ive been desperately trying to fix things and relationships in the chip fandom

[arsen1cs4ng0]

fucking hell

#ooookay tw for suicide in the tags. just putting that out there #ive been desperately trying to fix things and relationships in the chip fandom #especially with the influx of people breaking off contact with gremlin. theres been a lot of people who've cut her off #i even got in contact with one of her victims through the chip discord. i helped him with his ''experiences with gremlin/apology'' tweet #<- which is up btw. i quote retweeted it on priv but i might repost it here #but i just feel like my efforts are just completely useless #this mindset was what pushed me to defend my friends throughout 2022. but at the same time its how i got into the shit with ''yuzu'' #(quotes cuz yuzu was a sockpuppet. gremlin really thought she could chase me out of the fandom after that shit) #im just too fucking hopeful and too fucking nice #i held hope that there'd be a day where the fandom would be nice again - despite me wanting to kill myself **partially** thanks to gremlin #and in february i **had** to leave if i didnt wanna be dead. im (kinda. emphasis on kinda) back in the fandom now but still #im terrified of talking to people directly about this shit. its taken me a lot for me to open up about this shit to other people privately #especially to the folks in the chip discord. it felt so relieving when i knew i was safe to rant about her and what she did to everyone #ughhhh im yapping about nothing. sorry i sound really annoying about this shit LOL #but i just wanted to chuck my feelings out into the void. its what i do #val being a pissbaby