#ive really been considering that lately. wouldnt make much money but itd be fun. now i just gotta try to get my brain to focus on a topic

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FUCKIN GET IT MR. MITCHELL

#i can HEAR his voice say this #and im probably the only one #at least here #he was my modern world history teacher in 10th grade. he thought my name was sophie AND a completely unrelated teacher also thought my name #was sophie. same semester. an hour apart #and then i found out that my mom almost named me sophie. so if i ever need an alias.... #AND mr. mitchell was also my psych teacher senior year. his class was always my favorite. and he rarely assigned hw. and it was really funny #he forgot my name cuz his daughters name is olive and olivia is pretty close to that. some people even call me olive. but no apparently im a #sophie. the other teacher made more sense. there was a sophie in the class and she has nieces named sophie and olivia so she remembered our #names but forgot which was which. but i have many fond memories of mr. mitchell. he has a very distinct voice and knew how to work it to his #advantage. kept peoples attention. made him more approachable. he used to let me and my friends hang out in his classroom during lunch and #watch youtube on the projector. he had us watch silence of the lambs in class. everyone was deeply disturbed that me and my friends could #recite it line for line. id only actually seen it once before but my brain loves to hold on to movie dialogue. but i managed to memorize my #teachers voice well enough to be able to hear his tweets. itd be weird not to have an inner voice. and be able to hear other people's voices #in their head. if i worked at it i could probably mimic voices pretty well. be great for a voice acting career. thats what i wanted to be in #high school btw. i wanted to be a voice actor. or a comedian. still considering it honestly. i could do stand up comedy on youtube. #ive really been considering that lately. wouldnt make much money but itd be fun. now i just gotta try to get my brain to focus on a topic #enough to write some bits. i have all these ideas and my brain is like a toddler bouncing excitably from topic to topic and not sticking #with one long enough to get anything cohesive out of it. idk. would anyone watch that? is that even a thing? i guess i could try animating #it? im asking my grandma for a new drawing tablet for christmas. i need one with a screen. my brain doesnt make the connection that whats #happening on the computer is screen is what im doing on the tablet surface. i need to be able to see my hands while im drawing. otherwise i #just get a headache. digital art would be easier for me cuz theres less steps to setting it up than with setting up an area to paint or #something. less steps is good. less steps means my brain has less time to get distracted from the objective. i love art but the process is #so daunting. and i think my pencil sketches are shit so i try to go more detailed and include more mediums. but then it just fucks it up #then im back where i started. at least with digital drawing if i dont like what im drawing and get frustrated i can just x out of it. with #physical mediums you have to clean everything up and decide what to do with your disaster and possibly throw it out and then wish years #later that you kept it so you could show your progress. did this happen to me? maybe. now obviously you could just delete it off your #computer and itd be just as lost as the one you threw away BUT its much easier to save some copies of the different parts of the process. #with physical art you might have just done it in one sitting on one piece of paper and once thats gone its gone. of course you have to have #the foresight to have saved the copies but i imagine it would become a habit after awhile.