#just sot down and obsessively write all day and edit til the crack of dawn

[jessiesjaded]

I will say being someone who is almost incapable of doing things in increments is so genuinely draining, like my brain just obsesses and when it's stuck on something I need to do that /Right Now/ or I'm just plainly not going to do it

#I always try to get better about it but like. #my brain has fundamentally always been like this #i have stacks of art from when i was 12 til now #where I started it but since I didnt finish it in one sitting I simply never finished it #and like yeah Ive gotten slightly better with stuff but not much? #When I was writing fic I would 9/10 write and edit the thing in a single sitting #just sot down and obsessively write all day and edit til the crack of dawn #bc I just know when i do an outline and stuff I will abandon it #when I clean I clean it all #When i dusted my brothers filthy room i was like doing this in sections over a few days would probably be best #but i still just went for hours instead until i was exhausted #ive been wanting to clean out the garage for years now #but it will absolutely take at least a week and the notion of stopping and starting frustrates me so i just dont start at all #ugh I dont know its just maddening #i wish someone noticed this pattern when i was a little girl so i could have gotten help and not dropped oit of school but #didnt happen so now i just live like this