#just. agh. it bothers me when ppl act like ppl who refuse to watch horror movies r just childish losers or w/e

[orcelito]

I am so #LoserCore with how little I can handle horror (I don't think I've ever even seen an actual horror movie in full, even clips are Enough For Me)

Honestly tho I don't care if it makes me a "loser" for refusing to watch any kind of horror movie at all. I'm just trying to take care of myself :p

#speculation nation #i am just so easily affected by the media i consume #to the point where i Will adopt the moods from it (& so i have to be careful about consuming darker stories) #(gritty fics can and Have sent me on entire mental spirals before. at least several times before.) #couple my general media empathy (i guess you could call it) with my general paranoia and it just #it does bad things to me. very bad things to me. #like man i literally sleep with a machete as long as my leg in my bedframe bc im so paranoid about possible intruders in my apartment #do u think i can handle consuming a story with that as the premise???? i would have nightmares about it for months and months and MONTHS #my dreams are already so bloody and dark and oftentimes horrible and i DO. NOT. NEED TO GIVE IT MORE AMMUNITION. #just. agh. it bothers me when ppl act like ppl who refuse to watch horror movies r just childish losers or w/e #if i hear a too-realistic scream it feels like claws in my ears. sinking into my brain. digging in and bleeding a dread so vivid #that it makes my heart seize. and screams are Kind Of Expected in Most horror. #so. i am over here enjoying my little stories with the cushion of Imagination rather than realistic portrayals #bc i already dream of the bloody. i dont need it to become more HD. thank u.