#less of a negative person on the outset while releasing the negative feelings that smother me

[goodbye-susan]

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I'm fine now at least just the last 12 hours it's aaaaaaaaaaa #I get anxious screaming into a pillow I think the neighbours would still hear it if I completely went for it #the best opportunity would be middle of nowhere half way between my house and hometown where I'd park the car and just scream scream scream #but that's not very convenient #I'm fine in this exact moment but it's just the same underlying troubles that rear up every so often #sometimes you have to let it out but there is immense anxiety about being *too* negative *too* difficult #because no one wants to be around that all the time #guess if I get something vented like this to tumblr it acts as some exhaust for thoughts and then I can get back to functioning normally #less of a negative person on the outset while releasing the negative feelings that smother me #everyone needs a void for shouting into