#like I'm seeing these characters and I've known they've witnessed and been subjected to some pretty messed up things. i've seen them-

[ectoplasmer]

rainy looked at pictures of her f/os for too long and is on the verge of tears. normal thursday night activities

#LISTEN LISTEN. they’re just too pretty for me to handle okay #i think this is like a major red flag but i also do not care right now #i don't think it's just their looks or anything #though i won't lie i do get overwhelmed by things i deem pretty way too much. #(totally do not pace around the room aimlessly for five minutes straight after looking at fanart)/hj #but like. i think it has something to do with acknowledging/knowing about all they've been through??? #like I'm seeing these characters and I've known they've witnessed and been subjected to some pretty messed up things. i've seen them- #-unhappy and angered and upset. by watching this series i've watched them go through a ton of heavy things in their fictional little lives #but it's seeing them portrayed as happy that messes me up. it's seeing them live normal lives and being displayed as peacefuf- #-and being seen as semi-normal for a moment that gets to me #like... they deserve to be happy. they deserve to have normal lives. they deserve all the things canon didn't really indulge them in enough #(or even at all in some cases) #i get so hyped up on the idea of them just being able to exist without worrying about the problems of canon that it gets to my head #and then i get all stupid and emotional because i'm a sad sap #i dunno. i just think they deserve a lot of things. it makes me happy seeing them receive normalcy so much so i- #-get teary eyed over it or whatever #something about just witnessing these characters in their entirety and knowing them from the inside out... knowing all the things they- #-faced and never got to get. and then you see them get those things through other twists of fiction and ideas from the fandom #it's instant serotonin okay </3 #idk what the whole point of this post was but #anyway. normal rainy behavior. do not worry #rainy.file