#like i get it he did a bunch of shitty stuff kinslaying aside

[gardensofthemoon]

i’m on my first silm reread since highschool i think (so more than eight years), and it’s the first time i read it in english — and i JUST finished the flight of the noldor and i’m an emotional wreck, my hands tremble, i cried so much, i didn’t expect to be so angry at the valar. look how they massacred my boy

after so much introduction and infodumping (affectionate) there is SO MUCH happening here, i thought i could handle it since i’ve been in the fandom for a few months already and i’m familiar with the plotline but DAMN i had such a gut-punch, i’m sobbing

#silm reread #elio rambles #feanor #silmarillion #the valar #feanorian stan #like i get it he did a bunch of shitty stuff kinslaying aside #but mandos is so shady #‘not the first’ said mandos #that slayed me #and the doom of the noldor!!!! whatttt that’s a curse #that’s literally a curse #oh my fucking god #and that line about how feanor loved his dad more than the light of valinor #im crying again fuck #he loved his dad more than the silmarils #not to mention that we were robbed of the text of the Oath #why isn’t that shit in the silmarillion #i had to look it up #then feanor laughed as one fey #i just have so many emotions about this chapter