#like i knew he'd be indisputably my top artist but. holy fuck.

[orcelito]

Ok so I was wondering like

Top 0.005% of listeners. That's Pretty Damn Small. But I was wondering Just how small...

357.1k monthly listeners

0.005% of 357.1k is... just under 18...

Guys. I'm within the top 20 listeners for IAMX. Period. 🫣

#speculation nation #16K MINUTES OF MY 59K TOTAL MINUTES FOR THE YEAR... #A LITERAL 27% OF ***ALL*** MUSIC I LISTENED TO THIS YEAR........ #cant help gettin emo i guess #like i knew he'd be indisputably my top artist but. holy fuck. #THIS ALSO ISNT INCLUDING THE SNEAKER PIMPS ALBUM... which ive listened to obsessively too #as an extension of the obsession with his music. bc he sings in it. #SOMETIMES AN ARTIST HITS U LIKE A FREIGHT TRAIN and ur left like. yeah. yeah . #helps that hes got so many albums so i spent Months slowly making my way through them all. #but then i just kept listening to him bc his music just... scratches an itch in my brain idk. #in part it's the grief. Metanoia was a crutch of an album after my uncle died. #and also with my cat... it was just. nonstop IAMX. for Months. #ive been branching out more again recently bc i do like some variety in the music i listen to #but if i want music but dont know what to play it just always ends up going back to IAMX #because it's dependable. it's enjoyable. it's Comfortable. #his music feels like a reset button for me. like returning to a dark room to sleep at night. #it's not dark for the sake of darkness. but for the comfort of it. existing honestly. existing without fear of judgement. #and bringing the analogy together i really have listened to his music to help me sleep a few times #not often just bc i usually dont listen to music as i sleep. im a light sleeper so i need white noise. #but there were a few times i found myself without a working fan. so i turned to his music to act as white noise instead. #not actual white noise of course. but the function of it. the Comfort. the familiarity. #pick one of his lowkey albums and just let it keep going. and it works. it does. #so like. it makes sense. it does. i understand entirely why i rank so high in his monthly listeners. #it's just a bit mind boggling to actually see the tangible numerical value hfkshdjd bc. man. man...