#like i literally dont even feel like a person. like my life is genuienly worthless and my dad was right.

[thestarsshone]

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#self harm tw #LOL anywyasysyysysysys we are gonig to go back. to our reliable methods . call this blowing off steam. call this<3 #ill be like im experiencing an emotion like ada you know your parents banned that. ? #anwyywyay<3 i wish they would just #violence tw #i wish they would take a knife and kill me actually so that i can tell them they suck ass and bleed out to death #i actually wish that they would kill me one of these times. sometimes it's like. whats worse. #physical harm or emotional harm. #like with physical harm once its over its over like yes i replay it over in my head but im not gonna feel it again #but with emotions man. man oh man. i will never stop thinking about it. i will have nightmares and ill want to die. #but tis like its all in my head so thats better too. like yeah im not exposing my sister to violence so that good #i want to die and i want to kill myself violently so that the act itself can serve as a part of the catharsis. #like i literally dont even feel like a person. like my life is genuienly worthless and my dad was right. #call this maid behavior. call this loser behavior. call it no human rights i just need to get out . #me to myself. ill bite. lets cut or something #like help i hate my mom but she has cancer like im surprised she hasn't used that to get me yet. #hmmmmm.... wondering.... #oh maybe itll be more of a post cancer thing like well you never supported me while i had cancer and now you're going to this