#like the weirdest aspect of emotional turmoil tm is always how regulated and in order it is

[lesamis]

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being in like a deep family crisis that's making me re-evaluate my plans for uhhh the entire rest of my life while also being across the country from said family and having had all my friends move away and also having like. a job. is. well it's honestly the most abnormal time imaginable. all day long i'm polite and friendly and Learning On The New Job and joking around w my coworkers and teasing our resident law student about his bad taste in fantasy lit & then i go home and collapse into a sobbing heap for a few minutes & then i have a two-hour-long hashtag girlrot nap in full daytime and then i make a beautiful meal and it tastes delicious & then i'm crying in the shower and remembering to use conditioner and oh it's a new day already. like. sorry to @ god again but what are we

#like the weirdest aspect of emotional turmoil tm is always how regulated and in order it is #i don't think anyone at work has even slightly suspected that sth might be Going On w me? #and on the one hand im like. how. but at the same time compartmentalizing is sort of just what adult life is? #tbh for all i know everyone else i work with also comes home at the end of the day and has a mental breakdown bc ✌ life innit #john mulaney this might as well happen dot jpg