#like things will get better i have a job now but fuuuuuuuuccccckkkkkkk its really hard out here

[shadyhouse]

hey hi hello good morning um i just got woken up with the knowledge of my bank account being way in the negatives because a bill came in later than it should have and i am not taking it well

i started a new job last week and im not getting my first check until later this week, and theyre mailing it to me so it may come even later. my phone bill needs to be paid (its $54 and i need my phone turned back on just in case my job tries to call me, i dont want to get fired/suspended over this) and of course my fridge is looking empty at the worst time too (literally any amount helps, i just need basic food to last for the next week. im running low on struggle meal ingredients 😅)

im transmasc and queer and i have no family or support system to fall back on, i would take on more commissions but my queue is very full and i want to make a dent in it before i open up again, plus its hard to be creative in a situation like this... i cant afford burnout right now

im so close to being back on my feet, this is my last roadblock and its coming at the worst time. as soon as things get steady with work things will be back to normal!!!

please please please dont feel obligated to help, only if you can afford to do so, otherwise id appreciate reblogs! i know we're all struggling right now, even just visibility helps

paypal.me/bewearrr

ko-fi.com/shadyhouse

venmo: tobias_leviathan

thank you for reading this far if you did, hopefully this will be the last time ever i need to make a post like this... 😭 i cant afford to lose my job and im hungry dude!!!!!! its pride month i shouldnt be living like this!!!!!!

#i woke up to go to the bathroom and checked my phone and saw that email and like #god i do not want to make another post like this im so fucking mad at myself #like things will get better i have a job now but fuuuuuuuuccccckkkkkkk its really hard out here #yesterday night i had like $48 in my bank account and i was like 'this is fine i'll just start a basic ych tomorrow :)' #and then today began :') of course its ALWAYS something. i really thought life would go easy on me for one month huh