#literally feel genvy towards them too which. fucking sucks. why do i want what they have

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:/

#isdlfjddjdjejddjd i am feeeling very bad today <3333333 #sry i am definitely deleting later <3 i just need 2 yell #this is going 2 be me ranting about relationships so. ignore ! #relationship with my abus*r< #i literally got the worst flashback of my life today in the middle of class and have been inconsolable since </3 #i just want 2 cry .. #at this point therapy isn’t enough i literally need to physically fight a specific person #but also like. why do i sometimes feel like i want them back when they were the worst #when u never got closure after 7 years but they’re doing perfectly fine #literally feel genvy towards them too which. fucking sucks. why do i want what they have #godddddddd i hate this i hate them i hate myself #like how am i still feeling the effects of what a 16 yr old did to me. how does that happen #but also. how is a 16 yr old that awful of a person to leave THAT much damage #i think i need to just. write it out or something but i also don’t have the energy to comfort myself #anyways. im normal