#literally only have found 3 jobs that meshed w my autism and 2 of them i cant do anymore bc of physical disability

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smth that I've found difficult in navigating life as an autistic adult is that I don't want to be infantilized, like I want/need to be viewed as a full adult, but sometimes my needs seem childish to people. so like I fight to be taken seriously but then when I do actually need help I can't get it because only a child would need it and I should be able to handle if I really want to be viewed as an adult

#i just. i do not feel like i am fit to work. but its incredibly difficult to obtain ssi and then ssi sucks #literally only have found 3 jobs that meshed w my autism and 2 of them i cant do anymore bc of physical disability #and 1 of them is still my job (math tutor ❤️) we're only allowed to work up to 19.5 hrs a week whoch i cant live off of #anyway this is all to say i feel like a dumb childish idiot because i cant function if im not wearing my favorite comfy shirt #and i know its ridiculous but i just will not be able to focus on anything else all day sometimes #i just need to be in my comfort clothing sometimes so i can feel like it's giving me a hug all day #and i know theyre just never going to understand that because of how stupid it sounds #i wish i had like a cool relative who was rich. i mean i do but hes not THAT cool. who would let me live in like an apartment they rent