#literally running out of food. i am refusing to allow myself to interact w ppl for stupid mental health readons i dont even know how 2 get

[pepprs]

today has been hard

#i keep telling myself im gonna like. reply to ppl and write things. but trying to maintain any scrap of normalcy when things r like this is #very hard. at least * popped up OUT OF THE BLUE and whatever happened w that happened but like. my dream this morning came true we r #literally running out of food. i am refusing to allow myself to interact w ppl for stupid mental health readons i dont even know how 2 get #in2 and its fucking me up i. quarantine bu like. god i just have Things about things i guess. i know im deprivin myself of interaction #but im too scared to reach myself and i freak out when ppl reach to me so what the fuck do i do. and we’re out of bread and cant get more. #and soon we’ll be out of everything else. and im 92% certain our next door neighbor has covid. everything is a lot #the future is floating! its hard to pin down. i just want everything to go back to normal i want ppl to have food and i want everyone to #stop dying lol. this could be years u know? years. fuck. sorry. im in a bad headpaace i shouldnt make personal posts when i #am but like. oh we are naught coping so we r just bei ng hypocritical instead then #quarantine makes all my bad habits worse. i crazy <3 #purrs