#lmao I’m the meme of that ant packing up and leaving

[tellie-vision-art]

Wanting more Priyaxel content but also knowing if I want it that badly I will have to make it myself bc it feels like no one actively ships it/makes content for it anymore 😭

I feel like a loser here in my corner hyped up over something no one else cares about and I’m kinda embarrassed about it 😩 like I have thoroughly convinced myself now that I am dumb for shipping it bc no one sees it like I do and people are perceiving me as weird and overdramatic about it 😔

#top ten saddest moments in history number one #sorry if you followed exclusively for Priyaxel content this might be the end of the road tbh #I still really like the ship obviously but I feel like no one cares and my hype over it is cringe to see #honestly I’m almost finished with the thing I am writing but #I might not even post it bc there’s no audience for it so what’s the point /: #and I feel like people wouldn’t like it anyway tbh that’s always what happens #maybe the world is not ready for my Axel has BPD/Autism combo headcanon #but also idk maybe I should post it and get told it sucks before I give up on it #I guess the real con here is if I don’t post it then I can’t post/finish the PMV either #but I could also post that in its unfinished state? #anyway sorry if I never post any of this stuff I really am not sure if there’s a point #if there is someone out there in the void you’re free to try and convince me but idk /: #when I started writing this thing it was a different world where Priyaxel looked like the most popular ship #and now it seems like everyone dropped it for Ax*lle 💔 #see and Idek if I could just do a big text post with my thoughts on them either bc they’re so specific which was the point for writing 😭 #lmao I’m the meme of that ant packing up and leaving #ok but for real if I don’t finish the PMV I WILL post the unfinished version in the tag bc that took effort #sorry this is so gloomy I just feel kinda sad and demotivated #like it was so exciting when I first watched the season and discovered a ton of people shipped it and now… #alas I can always recycle my ideas for OCs that never fails me just fails everyone around me that wanted the canon characters #but damn it I am disappointed too when I go in the TD tag and all I see is Ax*lle #I have spoken too much you get the point by now I just feel /:

[rewardsforgooddeeds]

Hank Pym and Eric O’Grady’s “Relationship”

{{This is for that one anon! As it wasn’t a specific Hank roleplayer who sent it in, this is my take on my Eric with a more canon Hank, how I would personally see their relationship. When I started to ship this, I never really thought that anyone else would bother to join me, so thanks for indulging me anon! 

Without further ado, click the read more for my take on this meme for...ah...Pymgrady as I’ve been calling it! 

Some of the topics discussed are NSFW and may discuss physical and emotional abuse. Read with your own discretion.}}

{{I have some strong ideas about what kind of relationship they’d have and it’s not a very happy one. It’s most based on sex and arguments, so keep that in mind when reading this. I will cross out any question that don’t apply to them.}}

Disagreements:

The main part of their relationship.

Who is more likely to raise their voice?

I’m thinking both of them would probably raise their voices. Their arguments would be loud and would feature them yelling louder and louder just to be able to talk over the other. 

Who threatens to leave but never actually does?

Eric. Always one foot out the door with most relationships but is never the one to end it unless he actively has to run away. Although I think Hank would be similar

Who actually keeps their word and leaves?

Neither of them and they probably should.

Who trashes the house?

Depends if Hank is manic or not. If he is, he’d throw things at Eric.

Do either of them get physical?

Both of them do, very often.

How often do they argue/disagree?

They’re always arguing or disagreeing with one another. It’s rare that they’re in agreement over something anyway. 

Who is the first to apologize?

They’re both super stubborn but Eric is usually wrong, so he’d give a round about apology and offer sex.

Sex:

The other main part of their relationship.

Who is on top?

Hank usually.

Who is on the bottom?

Eric usually. 

Who has the strangest desires?

They both do!

Any kinks?

Eric’s got a praise kink, just call him a good boy and he’s gonna be needy for you. Hank likes to feel powerful because of his inferiority thing so this arrangement works for him, to have Eric needy and desperate for him.

Who’s dominant in bed?

Hank. They use each other to fulfill their needs when it comes to sex, and Hank wants to be in control.

Is head ever in the equation?

Yes. Sometimes, Hank just needs to push Eric down and make him take it. And sometimes, Eric just really needs Hank to shut up about that science stuff that makes him so smug.

If so, who is better at performing it?

Eric. I don’t know why I’m saying Eric but my mind immediately just declared Eric is better at it. How would a jerk like him get laid if he wasn’t good at it? :P

Ever had sex in public?

Does Hank’s lab count? If so, yeah.

Who moans the most?

...Eric. He’s also whiny.

Who leaves the most marks?

Hank.

Who screams the loudest?

Eric!

Who is the more experienced of the two?

Hank’s got age, so he’s got the experience. Especially with having long term partners. Eric’s probably had more partners but most of them have been a one time deal.

Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’?

Fuck. Love’s got nothing to do about it.

Rough or soft?

Rough. And usually fast.

How long do they usually last?

Not super long, it’s more about the heat of the moment verses going at it for a long time.

Is protection used?

If they remember.

Does it ever get boring?

No.

Where is the strangest place they’d have sex?

On top of some rather important papers in Hank’s lab.

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children?

Hahaha, holy shit, no way. Eric wouldn’t be a good father and Hank’s got a bad track record with kids (considering Ultron). And the last thing they’d want to do would be co-parents.

If so, how many children do your muses want/have? Who is the favorite parent? Who is the authoritative parent? Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? Who goes to parent teacher interviews? Who changes the diapers? Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? Who spends the most time with the children? Who packs their lunch boxes? Who gives their children ‘the talk’? Who cleans up after the kids? Who worries the most? Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from?

Affection:

Eric is secretly needy with this stuff.

Who likes to cuddle?

Sometimes, Eric just needs some affection.

Who is the little spoon?

If they fall asleep together, Eric.

Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places?

Hank.

Who struggles to keep their hands to themself?  

Hank.

How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?

Maybe ten minutes lmao.

Who gives the most kisses?

If kisses happen, it’s probably from Eric.

What is their favourite non-sexual activity?

Beating each other up lmao.

Where is their favourite place to cuddle?

Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? 

Eric. He’d definitely grab Hank’s ass in passing.

How often do they get time to themselves?

Not often. They might see each other once every few months.

Sleeping:

They don’t often share a bed. 

Who snores?

Neither of them.

If both do, who snores the loudest?

Do they share a bed or sleep separately?

Separately. 

If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? Who talks in their sleep?

What do they wear to bed?

Nothing lmao.

Are either of your muses them insomniacs?

Hank, especially on a bad day.

Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside?

Yeah but I don’t think Hank would usually take them.

Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side?

Side by side, sometimes cuddled up.

Who wakes up with bed hair?

Eric!

Who wakes up first?

Eric, usually to sneak out.

Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? What is their favourite sleeping position?

The “okay, I’m sick of you, let’s put some distance between us” position.

Who hogs the sheets? Do they set an alarm each night? Can a television be found in their bedroom? Who has nightmares?

Both of them.

Who has ridiculous dreams?

Eric!

Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? 

Eric.

Who makes the bed? What time is bed time? Any routines/rituals before bed? Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up?

Hank, especially since Eric is still there, why hasn’t he left yet?

Work:

Who is the busiest?

Hank, since he has an actual job of doing science stuff where Eric just takes various contracts like any mercenary.

Who rakes in the highest income?

Depends, if Eric has a really good job lined up he might make more, but Hank has a consistent income.

Are any of your muses unemployed?

Eric, technically.

Who takes the most sick days?

Hank will take mental health days.

Who is more likely to turn up late to work?

Eric was canoncally late to his SHIELD job like all the time lmao, so him.

Who sucks up to their boss?

Hank used to but he’s done with that shit now.

What are their jobs?

Hank’s a scientist/part-time Avenger. Eric is a former Secret Avenger but now he’s a mercenary villain with a part time job as an accidental super hero.

Who stresses the most?

Hank, Eric is a no stress sorta guy.

Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations?

Hank loves science but Eric kinda hates being a bad guy. 

Are your muses financially stable?

Hank, yes. Eric, no. He’s got periods where he has tons of money and then he blows that money and is broke.

Home:

They really shouldn’t live together, that’s a disaster waiting to happen. I could see Eric forcing his way into Hank’s house because he has nowhere else to stay but it’d be a very temporary arrangement and more of a roommates-who-have-sex arrangement over a domestic one.

Who does the washing? Who takes out the trash? Who does the ironing? Who does the cooking? Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? Who is messier? Who leaves the toilet roll empty? Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? Who forgets to flush the toilet? Who is the prankster around the house? Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? Who mows the lawn? Who answers the telephone? Who does the vacuuming? Who does the groceries? Who takes the longest to shower? Who spends the most time in the bathroom?

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem?

For Eric, yeah. He’s bad with money and blows it on stupid shit. 

How many cars do they own?

Eric doesn’t own a car. I think Hank would own one, maybe two sometimes.

Do they own their home or do they rent?

Hank owns some places. Eric rents shoe box places and tries to spend next to no time in them.

Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside?

Eric grew up spending time between Boston and Vermont, and now he goes wherever he can be safe. Hank is all over the place, but they both generally stay on the coast.

Do they live in the city or in the country? 

City.

Do they enjoy their surroundings?

Eric misses Vermont and Boston and being normal. Hank can find something to like wherever he is.

What’s their song?

It’s hard to pick just one ahaha. But I did title the tag/some fics with a line from “Dance Yrself Clean” by LCD Soundsystem, “Make me into bigger pieces”. There’s also the line “Talking like a jerk except you are an actual jerk, and living proof that sometimes friends are mean” which I think is good for them too.

What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Nothing different.

Where did they first meet?

On a SHIELD Helicarrier. 

How did they first meet?

See the first picture. Eric and his friend Chris were told to guard this door. Not told whether to guard it from someone going in or someone going out, Hank opens the door and Eric knocks him out. And then they steal the Ant-Suit, and the rest is history

Who spends the most money when out shopping? Who’s more likely to flash their assets?

I’m not sure what this means by assets but Eric would definitely be pleased to use sex to his advantage.

Who finds it amusing when the other trips over?

Eric.

Any mental issues?

Oh yeah. Obviously, there’s Hank’s canon battle with his mental illness and his struggle on getting help. A lot of my feelings on this pairing have to do with Hank having a hard time with it and taking it out on Eric, something that he’s done before in relationships. 

Eric, meanwhile, canoncally doesn’t have any mental illnesses. However, I see him getting PTSD from dying and having depression over it. There has been hints of him self harming via getting tattoos because of the pain and I could see him self harming in other ways, like with alcohol.

I can also see Eric with a mental disability like ADHD but that’s just me projecting :P

Who’s terrified of bugs?

Neither of them, they’re Ant-Man(s)

Who kills the spiders around the house?

Their favourite place?

Who pays the bills?

Do they have any fears for their future?

Eric is terrified about essentially living for an indefinite period of time at the age he is at now. As long as someone reboots his mind into another model, he’s going to live forever. The curse of being an LMD.

Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Who uses up all of the hot water?

Who’s the tallest?

Hank! But Eric’s not above using the particles to give himself a few extra inches.

Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?

Eric.

Who wanders around in their underwear?

Eric.

Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?

Eric.

What do they tease each other about?

They’re not really teasing each other, they’re usually just mean lmao.

Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?

Eric wears awful shirts, Hank cringes. And Eric thinks Hank dresses like a nerd.

Do they have mutual friends?

Not really. Honestly, they both find it hard to keep friends.

Who crushed first? 

Eric. He still has it a lot worse for Hank than Hank has for him.

Any alcohol or substance related problems?

Eric is kinda bad with alcohol. Hank has a pretty addictive personality too.

Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?

Eric.

Who swears the most?

They both kinda swear a lot.

#who i am :: response #make me into bigger pieces :: hank pym #this took forever omfg and i skipped huge chunks of it too}}