#looks at margeese pointedly

[leonstamatis]

the thing that helps me sometimes wrt numbers brain is that the most popular fic isn’t actually gonna be the best fic, pretty much ever, bc the things people gravitate toward are the things that appeal to the largest number of people instead of the sort of weird offbeat passion projects i frequently throw myself at. the things that do numbers are bigger fandoms and popular ships and (often) watered down characterizations or popular tropes, none of which is what i really enjoy doing ninety percent of the time.

#what are my most popular fics you may well ask? #o/f/m/d by a long shot. #then a t/a/a/kitz fic from AGES ago when t:b was winding down #then a very fanon-compliant jason fic. #then a very fanon-compliant j/o/y/fire fic. #and i like all of these fics a reasonable amount. they’re fine. #BUT. #they aren’t the ones i go back and reread all the time. #those ones are the ones that are more personalized and particular to Me. #even in blaseball like. the most popular ones are the ones that comply with popular lore. #and if i were to go in and rework them it would be to make them Weirder and Less Palatable #bc then i would be more fond of the actual content of them #of course that’s not always true. im still baffled by the reception to the scorekeeper fic and various other weird projects #looks at margeese pointedly #but like. those are outliers in the broader spectrum of my works. #idk im just rambling #point is i tend to fall around 30-40 kudos regardless of fandom #and that’s in part bc 1) smaller fandoms 2) less popular ships 3) secondary or tertiary characters 4) in a weird plot #and it’s GREAT it’s so fun to do #okay I’m done that’s it #tam.exe