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[beastofwant]

my neighbor just sent me this text and this is literally terrifying

I think I might set up a gofundme for a motel when I get home

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[beastofwant]

sexuality is so complicated</3

I like men in a faggy way & women in a dykey way but you cant just say that bc people are cowards abt the nuances of gender and sexuality

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[beastofwant]

false prophet (self-diagnosed)

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[beastofwant]

got a really nice wake-up call from someone (one of my neighbors called the cops on me and EMS and police were knocking on my door and that's how I woke up this morning)

I didn't answer because they have no reason to be here whatsoever and they left after knocking twice but uh, what the fuck

I would not be surprised if my stalker neighbor called a wellness check to harass me. but seriously what the fuck

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[beastofwant]

the disco elysium subreddit is having a normal one I see

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[beastofwant]

I feel like I am going to develop shaken baby syndrome as an adult from how all of these apartments are pulling me back and forth jesus christ

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[beastofwant]

after months of abuse at the hands of my support team, it's happening. I have to be out of my apartment at noon tomorrow and I am completely without support.

I have another apartment lined up finally, for real this time, but because I rely on subsidized housing they have to inspect the unit and it can take weeks to get scheduled. I was told I had a moving truck + storage + somewhere to stay lined up for me but all of that was a fucking lie and I'm completely lost as to what to do. I spent today calling every help line, shelter, charity and church I could find and begging for help but I couldn't find anything and I am terrified and I am desperate for something.

there's a storage unit with a special for $46 first month's rent here so I don't lose everything I own again and I know of some very cheap airbnbs to keep myself off of the streets but I'm disabled and barely get anything from my state's welfare, I really really desperately need help in keeping myself housed until I can move into my new place and I feel fucking awful for having to ask for help so much.

I did not expect the past 5 months of my life to be some of the most traumatic and difficult and I want to survive this for many reasons but esp so i can help others someday, housing is a human fucking right and as bad as this is there are people who are going through so much worse and its just nauseating

p.ypl [email protected] c@sh4pp doppelgougar vennnm0 alumirust

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[beastofwant]

oh so Everything everything is falling apart, huh

I didn't get my general assistance at all this month which is my only income, and I wasn't warned or anything it's just gone. tomorrow my phone plan ends and now I can't even afford the most basic of plans to keep it on, meaning I'm going to lose contact with my housing worker entirely as she refuses to communicate any way besides calling me (and not be able to get in touch with landlords),

and my internet subsidy isn't just being cancelled but reversed (so they're charging me, again, More) because my case manager somehow didn't do her research and the initial fix for the phone situation kicked me off of the ACP and had the last ACP payment reversed. so I can't afford my bills as it is but now the things that helped me stay just above water are gone and so is the tiny bit of income I have left and I have to just really, really hope they're not taking my food stamps away too or I will be left with nothing and utterly screwed

I just don't even have words anymore. I'm trying to stay hopeful and trying to keep fighting but this is a fucking nightmare and it's one I've lived before, I just can't believe I did all this work and it's still happening again. being disabled in america is torture it really really is

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[beastofwant]

hi pls help lmao

I'm morgan, a disabled trans fag in my mid 20s. I have cptsd + DID + some other fun chronic mental and physical health conditions and a lot of my trauma is regarding housing. specifically losing housing and ending up homeless. I spent 5 years couch surfing after an abusive relationship let me homeless and without anything until I got subsidized housing and thought things would turn around.

they didn't. my living situation is bad, and I've been posting pretty extensively about it esp lately. I live in a slum. there's roaches, a neighbor who's basically been stalking me, a landlord that's harassing me, and most recently a drive-by shooting quite literally outside my window. my lease ends on the 31st.

my housing worker has been incredibly sketchy and unreliable and I don't even know if I have housing secured past the 31st anymore but I'm down to the wire and have no choice and I cannot stay in this place any longer with how it has affected my physical and mental health. I really can't

I need help with moving supplies. I thought I got enough boxes but I'm still running short, and my housing worker says she wants me packed by this sunday. I also need to make some runs to goodwill. I have absolutely no movers scheduled or anything like that which my worker is supposed to be taking care of so I have no choice but to rely on someone who has been unreliable since we began working with her. I have been a fucking mess about this, it has truly been one of the worst weeks of my life

c4sh4pp is $doppelgougar v3nm0 is alumirust p4yp4l is [email protected]

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[beastofwant]

my partner and I are in the middle of a huge shitstorm rn and we really need help!!!!

Vmo @/alumirust PyPl [email protected] CshPp $doppelgougar

tldr I'm trying to find an apartment for the two of us while dealing with housing instability myself, my girlfriend is being kicked out by her transphobic and horrifically abusive family and we need help getting her up here so that she is not homeless in the rural southern US as a trans woman. my partner's deadline is the end of april. I need to find a place by july or my voucher gets taken away. it's a mess

I'm still struggling to find housing with a government subsidy in order to be able to get back on my feet after years of homelessness & instability because of fleeing an abusive relationship when I was 19. if you've been following me you know the absolute nightmare my situation has been leading up to this. I'm able to stay somewhere relatively stable for the time being, blessedly, and they're able to take in my partner as well.

My close friend and lovely girlfriend has been unable to escape her severely abusive family for her whole life. the shit she's told me they do to her is the stuff of genuine nightmares, and now they're kicking her out at the end of the month. she had made plans, but they've since fallen through, and she needs help repairing her car.

the biggest, most pressing issue with her car is the rack and pinion probably need to be replaced. we're working on getting an estimate for that but she's having to take it somewhere else because the initial mechanic she brought it to couldn't help her with it :( I'll update this post with a dollar amount when we have it!!

her deadline is the end of april. if she's unable to get her car repaired on time, we're looking into having the car delivered, her flying in via plane, and mailing some of her belongings (she really doesn't have a lot, though) and then worrying about the repairs once she's up here. the car is technically operable, but the issues with it mean it's NOT safe for a 17+ hour drive in its current state. but she also absolutely has to be out by the end of the month. it's a fucking mess like I said!! she has SOME savings to work off of, but not very much. she had to shell out $750 for repairs not including the rack and pinion.

any little bit at all is appreciated, even small amounts add up. if all my followers helped with just one dollar we'd be really close to being able to afford the delivery outright!! even if you're unable to help please share this, I really really want to ensure my girlfriend is able to get out of there safely. thank you all for your help so far <3

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[beastofwant]

misophonia, hyperacusis, and similar conditions are not the fault of the individual, nor are they "just a personal problem", they are disabilities that need accommodations and I'm tired of suffering because people without these conditions don't understand what it's like and never care to, either.

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[beastofwant]

I heard back from the apartment complex and the paperwork my HSS worker gave me is wrong so they think I don't even HAVE a voucher and that I've only applied for one and am not approved yet so my HSS worker whose entire job and responsibility is to help me apply for housing and navigate all of this actively is making me look like a fucking joke. so now I'm sending in the voucher I got in 2022 because it's ALL I HAVE because they haven't sent me anything up to date and we're over halfway through the month and even if I do get the goddamned voucher situation figured out they are suddenly saying the unit they showed to me and told me to my face is section 8 approved is NOT section 8 approved and I just fucking

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[beastofwant]

my second fucking apartment fell through because they didn't have a rental license yet. where I'm currently staying was meant to be temporary & I do not know how much longer I will be able to stay bc my friends are adopting a kid and that kid will be taking the room I'm currently staying in

my mental health is incredibly fucking fragile right now and I really need privacy or I am genuinely worried I will hurt myself. everything about this entire situation has been a nightmare going on for half a fucking year now;

my support team subjected me to transphobic abuse & harassment and then let me become homeless without any recourse. everything I own is in a storage unit right now, and the storage unit costs half of my income (I only make $200/month on my state's disability program) and thats not accounting for things like toilet paper or uh, food.

I'm worried. all of my other posts have dwindled but my needs haven't, I just haven't had the energy to be boosting them as much. I'm drained, and still looking for a new apartment. I just want to rest.

v3nmo alumirust c4sh@pp $doppelgougar p4pyl is [email protected]

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[beastofwant]

hi! things are very bad! I could really use food and a safe place to stay

cshp. $doppelgougar vnm. alumirust ppl. [email protected]

my landlord is holding my low income housing voucher AND my foodstamps hostage because I took legal action against him for renting a nasty roach infested place to me, my housing worker actively gaslights and lies to me, and my move-out date is constantly being pushed further and further out of sight against my wishes. on top of that my upstairs neighbor sexually harasses me bc I'm trans & has been stalking me on social media. it's a fucking nightmare and just when I think it's over a new hellish chapter opens.

I've been staying in an airbnb on and off because things are so bad at my apartment I don't even feel safe leaving my room. today is my last stay where I'm at rn and I'm otherwise totally out of money. I don't have anything for food, or staying anywhere else. when I'm there I'm so stressed out I can't keep food down and can't sleep, I am constantly vigilant and constantly terrified. it's a rough area and there was recently a shooting outside my fucking window and I have been mentally buckling under all of this so losing access to food was really not something I needed to happen. all I want is to be able to get some decent sleep and decent nourishment

please help if you can, even just a few dollars is something but even if you're in a bad place please boost this post, mutual aid has gotten me places government benefits never have been able to

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[beastofwant]

I think you guys need to develop some sympathy and compassion for people who grew up in extremely controlling, isolated environments. you say you care about abuse victims until we don't have our social security numbers memorized, or don't know how to do taxes, or don't know how to write a check properly, or don't know how to hunt for an apartment, etc etc etc it's all lip service for us until the extent of the abuse, neglect, and withdrawal from the real world we experienced is actually detrimental.

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[beastofwant]

can I pls get a few dollars for some food. I still don't have food stamps + am out of money

$doppelgougar, venmo alumirust, paypal [email protected]

im too tired to make long fucking posts like i had been. things are still the same. help a disabled fag pls?

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