#making delicious food. organising the easter egg hunt around the garden for us kids

[robinsnest2111]

just saw a recipe video for a cake that looks just like a cake my late grandma used to make and now I got tears streaming down my face oops

#like. she died so suddenly and with the whole inheritance and oops my uncle is an evil bastard actually fiasco #and my parents never having the time to visit more than twice a year i never got to ask her for her recipes #ever since her death i thought i'd never get to taste or see that cake again #BUT HERE IT IS RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES. WITH A RECIPE DETAILING HOW TO DO IT. WHAT #i think i never really worked through her passing away. i'm still crying... #screw difficult family dynamics and situations that made it almost impossible to bond with relatives fr #all i have is that idealised image of her during the holidays. cooking up a storm in the kitchen #making delicious food. organising the easter egg hunt around the garden for us kids #decorating the christmas tree and preparing little treat platters with chocolate and clementines for us kids... #man i miss her.... wish i could've spent more time with her... talked about knitting and sewing and cooking #and growing plants and veggies. she used to have a greenhouse in the back garden. her tomatoes were the best #all the different shades of red orange and yellow. some even green! #i can almost taste them... #damn... i miss her so much... i also miss my early childhood. when it was just me and my cousin and her and grandpa #when they'd babysit us over the weekend. the walk to the little village bakery down the main road. the handmade sweet raisin bread... #the chocolates my grandma used to have around the house with the adorable kittens on the box... #really missing my grandma tonight...