#mal is scared that he loves the powerful sorcerer in her the charismatic leader

[mercymaker]

while my mind's mostly in the post-game brainrot hours when it comes to mal

every once in a while I think about her and astarion during the game events, especially early act 3, when they are still unsure about their relationship, but even with all that uncertainty, there's this gentle warm feeling shared between them

and there's an odd sense of innocence there, they're almost like two teenagers falling in love. stumbling through their feelings, haunted by certain fears and anxieties. of fucking it all up. of letting each other down. but above all, of not being enough.

they're not sleeping together at that point, of course, but instead they talk. they find a quiet spot somewhere on the outskirts of their camp and just chat. they go over the events of the day, they try to guess what happens next. they talk a little bit about themselves, get to know each other on a deeper level.

and that's how, I think, they end up falling deeper and deeper for each other. through the endless conversations, the somewhat awkward, shy touch.

#the bg3 adventures #oc: maleane #astarion #maleane/astarion #they're just neat idk #like i think their biggest insecurity at that point is not being right not being enough for the other #mal is scared that he loves the powerful sorcerer in her the charismatic leader #but that's just a fraction of her and showing him the softer more fragile side scares her #she doesn't want to appear weak to him because she fears that's not who he loves #and i think it's the same with him it's part of the reason he's so determined to do the ritual #AND YET little by little piece by piece they reveal those hidden details to each other