#mandatory “hawk and i broke up again for the 8765434567 time i have to go make it zeros problem” thread

[wickdcreatures]

          From the outside, she seemed at least semi-functional. She’s been going to the studio, going out with friends when invited, stopping by her favorite stories and overspending — all things considered, normal Heather behavior. What’s missing is spark — heart — anything that makes her actions her own. She’s on autopilot, doing things that people ask as though letting them take the wheel. Her friends, her bosses, everyone else gets to tell her how to dress, how to act, what to eat and what to do and she follows, no questions asked. It’s easier that way. That way she doesn’t have to think.

At least at first, from the outside she seemed semi-functional. But the longer she pushes her heartache down the more the cracks begin to show. She doesn’t eat unless she’s reminded, she only brushes her hair once someone points out how messy it is. She only visits @ohfiendangelical when he starts blowing up her phone asking where the hell she’s been. She’s haggard, gaunt, and disheveled, and if she allowed herself to feel anything at all her chest would be aching unbearably. 

          “ I’m sorry baby, I’ve been neglecting you — ”          she says as she walks through the door, pulling off her heels and leaving them lazily thrown amongst Felix’s perfectly lined up shoe rack. She gives Simba a few quick scratches as she walks further inside,          “ I’ve been really forgetful lately. You can totally be pissed but come kiss me first. ”

Her smile is hollow. 

#mandatory “hawk and i broke up again for the 8765434567 time i have to go make it zeros problem” thread #but make it somehow more dramatic LKJHGF #☽ heather — in character. ☾ #ohfiendangelical