#maybe i could just get him a really rudimentary flip phone or something. I'll think about

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if I ever start talking crazy and say that I want to leave uni or go home or see my parents u guys have to remind me of this moment... this cannot happen again seriously

#it was a moment of weakness my new plan is I'll go back to what i did when i was young #and pretend I'm fine now and just not tell them shit #it won't be convincing unless i do it slowly but I'll work on it over the summer #and then stay as far away for as long as possible lol #worst thing is it means i won't get to see my brother who's the only good part of this family I'll need to figure something out #i obviously do not want young kids to have access to phones but if he just has his own it would be so much easier #than i could just call him and forget the middle man #biggest fear is that without me there he'll turn out exactly like me and none of us fucking need that lmao #maybe i could just get him a really rudimentary flip phone or something. I'll think about #it