#me with my coffee gawking out the window waiting for the ondes authorities to come arrest kaen rn

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@asteelgarden has requested a story : ❛ can you look at me? please? ❜ ( also this from benny to kaen i did not forget no sirree not me )

𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒅.

Once-faith / once-trust now lays in shatters all at their feet , broken fractures Kaen desperately tries to pick up and piece back together only to catch themself bleeding because of it— Kaen stares unblinking , in s h o c k , down at their lap ( just what are they meant to do with the information that’s come to light ? ) .  It feels an awful lot as if the world – this one , not their own they know , but one that has made them feel p e a c e all the same – has been knocked off axis , sending spinning wildly OUT OF ORBIT and into the vacuous nothingness of space.  Amid all the emotions that seek to overwhelm them in this moment , the only constant … Is BETRAYAL .  Their friend , this Reverend who guided them and cared for them ( or so they believed ) , has been keeping things from them ; things that involve t h e m !  If only Kaen could claim this is the first time they have experienced such a pain , but alas … The familiarity of it is a cruel reminder of how inherently PREDICTABLE this all seems ( sweet creature , don’t you know ? you deserve this , you ought to know better than this by now — ! ) .

Look at me , he asks of them , pleads with them no less as if trying to offer consolation for everything ( but kaen is not a dull doe , they have a feeling this is only a trifle ; what they know is not the whole of it ) .  There’s a choked sound in reply , Kaen sinking further into their seat across the stretch of desk between them ; they CAN’T , they can’t look at him.  The poor thing t r e m b l e s under the weight of their emotions , the air around them QUIVERING alongside them , retaliating against the force they’re restraining in their small host ( no matter how upset they are , they still don’t want to hurt him ) .

Kaen takes a deep , steadying breath … And then another for good measure before raising their antlered head to look at Benny ; furred ears are pinned , divine aura is intense and agitated.  Though they put on a straight face , their blue eyes are welled with tears ( a few of which spring free , toppling down their cheeks , bouncing along as crystalized misery ) .  ❝ Ah … Trusted ye … ❞  Each word is gritted out , harsh and slow so he UNDERSTANDS ; their voice wavers around the edges , threatened by the instinct to break into a weeping , raging mess.  Cinder-smoke curls into the air , rising from their tightly clenched fists.  They take another breath , trying to keep themself talking , ❝ ‘Ow much- ‘ow much o' this – ❞ Hand lifts , gestures between the two of them to indicate their supposed friendship , ❝ – ‘R any o’ this – ❞ They swing their hand outwards broadly to indicate not simply the room they’re occupying , but the realm itself , their place in all of it up till now , ❝ – Was th’ TRUTH , huh ? ❞  They wait a beat , looking between his mirrored ‘ faces ’ , their own head shaking at him.  ❝ Was all o’ it a LIE ?!  Wha’ else do Ah needa’ know ?! ❞  Their hand slams down on the desk , searing into the wood , a starting fire that’s beginning to dangerously crawl over the grain closer to the Reverend , ❝ Jus’ TELL ME !  If ye- ye cared at all , ye’d fuckin’ TELL ME ! ❞

#❧ ⸺ how can ( queue ) say there is no story here ? ❞ #❧ ⸺ ch. kaen | answered ❞ #❧ ⸺ ch. kaen | verse i: main ❞ #asteelgarden #me with my coffee gawking out the window waiting for the ondes authorities to come arrest kaen rn #LMAO SKDJCDNKN #them? clearly a threat - must be detained #hey fellas you ever get your friend so upset they set your office on fire with you in it?? #I'M SORRY I'M SO SORRY #i shouldn't be making jokes #and yet................ #.................. this is the content we deserve