#meanwhile I’m sitting on 14 unwatched lectures

[exopelagic]

I did NOT realise how out of it I am December is messed up

#I just realised that I’ve got exactly two weeks before (mock) exam and I gotta be ready #meanwhile I’m sitting on 14 unwatched lectures #I just opened one up and I can’t bring myself to do it #it’s probably partly bc I need to shower! which I can actually do now so sorry lecture that has to take priority #but like. being at home fucks me up so insanely badly #mostly bc my brother will sit in our room all day with the lights off playing his games w his friends on call #(with the door closed. it smells very bad.) #and I can’t kick him out and there’s nowhere else I can rlly watch lectures #I could do other shit in theory but I haven’t been able to bring myself to do it bc working downstairs is also a nightmare #and even when I do get the room to myself like now (literally the first time since I’ve been back home) I’m working on my bed #and that kills my back and is just. very uncomfortable #but goddamn I like. just zoned out for like two weeks? I’m not even back yet but I’ve not done anything for like two weeks #and I go back weekend after next after which I have 5 days at uni before exam #and two weeks before I have to submit my supervisor choices for my fucking masters #like. oh my god #oh my gooooooooood #idk if I’m gonna make it out of this one alive #bc I Am behind now just objectively I am very behind and I’ll get it done before term starts but I’ve not rewritten many lectures notes #which isn’t Necessary but I don’t know the stuff in the lectures which is the problem #aaaaaand my brother is back and about to close the blind I’m just. I’m just gonna shower #thankfully this is the last time I’ll come back and have to be revising #but god. I thought it’d be better and then I just got sucked into the same shit as always #this has been a bad month but hey. new year on monday #yeah he’s on the phone I physically cannot be in here again he does this all day every day and I’m going to scream #okay! shower time! #hope everyone’s having a good day <3 #luke.txt