#mental illness and seasonal depression and ptsd stuff kinda make this month scary for me BUT

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#spending so much time doing house stuff when i have dpwntime all i can do is snooze #the landlord replaced the fuckd up laundry machines tho! we have these fancy ones now tht sing annoyig songs when th clothes r done #gonna start painting soon and then im gonna be reattaching the cabinetry in the kitchen bc its all fuckd up #frank.txt #u know despite how rough things are i AM hapy w this place . its so cozy and VERY quiet . and my abuser doesnt know where i live anymore #which is gr8 ! i can go outside and im less likely to deal w irl stalking again. still an agoraphobe bc stalking scary as hell BUT #At least im an agoraphobe in a cozy house that is far away from my prev place so its also safer #mental illness and seasonal depression and ptsd stuff kinda make this month scary for me BUT #its ok. its esp ok bc im making ham on xmas. literally all is well when i can make a big meal and watch ppl eat my food #downsides of this house - well ttoday i saw a stinkbug in the oven:(