#my anxiety levels rn 📈

[fruit-of-infidelity]

"What drew you to my OC", you say- sigh

[cracks knuckles]

[cracks simpery]

Ok I'll start from the beginning 😤 time to expose myself [breathes in]

I've been following your main blog for the longest time, before even daring to make an OC blog (bcuz war flashbacks). I always loved the way you wrote for EVERY boy and it was always so nice and entertaining to read you in my dash (still is 🏃‍♀️). So when I saw you made an OC it was like,,, instant follow and ALSO instant shyness. I wanted to interact so bad but there was this… odd anxiety that I feel when I try to interact with blogs I admire from the shadows kgjd. And I was just starting too, so anxiety levels were just 📈📈📈

In short, yes, I was initially dragged to your OC blog because I knew your writing style and overall understanding of DL beforehand, and seeing you hop in the OC train was just👀👀👀 hello there

However… although it's true that I followed you because you were behind that blog I liked, I knew that it was no guarantee for me to be also interested in the OC, for a number of reasons.

So what made me stay? 🤔

… trashes my previous statement Everything-

sdkjgdfg no fr, from Ryuuto's story, being Richter and Cordelia's son, to his design (OG and current sprites 🛐) and everything in the middle, his development, his personality, his interactions, and the way everything MAKES SENSE is just?? Godlike-

Because ngl, when I read he was a Sakamaki, I was like… oh, okay 👩🏻‍🦯 (not my dislike for S bros showing- SDJF) but then I read more into him, the idea of him being the child of that affair was so clever and interesting to read and learn about (Also it made the url just click in my head and that was so satisfying sFKDFJg). In truth, I'm a sucker for OCs that could as well have a certain role in the canon story that us mortals are not aware of until we meet them- And if it makes sense AND fills some gaps? i'm sold

Don't even make get started with the overall devotion and dedication you have that makes everything seem so effortless and natural, you seem passionate with everything and I love to see it 😩 (like,, Ryuuto's official voice actor? How dare you 👩🏻‍🦯 I didn't need my soul anyway)

WELP. I'm in love with everything you do, apparently 🙄 Not just biased (i hope-), but you clearly make people just LOVE your character; with his flaws, traumas, sass, playfulness, and secrets.

I swear when/if my baby learns about that side of Ryuuto, I- I think it'll be over for everyone involved 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

Lastly, Ryuulett interactions give me LIFE and I get so excited when I see you in my notes ;; tbh I had the feeling that she wouldn't like him entirely or viceversa, or her playful/daring attitude despite being a rather weak demon would get her in serious trouble at least- What a pleasant surprise to see them both being equally bold and equally teasing each other in the end HAHAHA. I love their dynamic so much and I'm always eager to see what's going to happen next😩🍿

So yeah,,, this is a whole mess, but I hope it makes sense (????)

TL;DR STAN AVA

What drew you to my OC?

// You- I- ROX!!!

YOU'RE SO SO KIND OMG, AAAAAA >< Over here making me blush rn, fr. I didnt know you liked my main, that's so lovely >< You've been following me since I BEGAN this blog??? 😩♥️

IM ON MY KNEES, YOURE SO LOVELYYYYY 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️ IM SO SO TOUCHED TO HEAR YOUR WORDS AAAAA IM ALSO STOKED THAT IT MAKES SENSE TO YOU!! I knew I wanted a Sakamaki (i hear you rollin' your eyes, Rox, lololol <3-) OC, but like,, was SUPER worried because there are all these fanfics of Sakamaki-Sister OCs and didn't want ANYTHING like that, but also didnt want someone that was just a random in the lore, you know? Also making him NOT a bride/diaboy x oc character was something i was ADAMANT from the get-go, so Im SUPER FLATTERED 😩😩😩

THANK YOUUUU 🥺🥺🥺 Ryuuto is like part of my soul now, he's my son and i want to do EVERYTHING for him to make him as canon as possible for an OC (i just rlly hope im not annoying by delaying things, like his route, because im a perfectionist with it too ><). I just really, really want to make the best version of him that I can for his route, fo everyone to enjoy! Don't get me started on the extra scenarios for the other boys routes too. I have like five scenarios per-diaboy that slot within their canon routes to incorporate Ryuuto into them. But anyway, I'm rambling about that-

ALSO THANK YOUUU AAAAA!!! If he's someone you love? Mission accomplished. If he's someone you hate? Mission accomplished, too. So I hope ppl will be able to see his good, bad and awful sides!!

DONT GET ME STARTED ON RYUULETT 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️

THEYRE PEFECT!! DOUBLE THE SASS, DOUBLE THE BOLDNESS, DOUBLE THE TEASING?? It's always so so SO fun interacting with you and your baby 🥺 DEF give me some of that popcorn because it ALWAYS gets intense and I looooveee themmmm 😩

YOU MADE TOTAL SENSE OMG DONT WORRY, YOU DIDNT EVEN NEED TO WRITE SO MUCH BUT IM SO SO GRATEFUL!!

HUUUUGE UNO REVERSE THOUGH FOR THAT TLDR 😤♥️

#(( brb sobbing bc youre so so lovely <3 #admin #kindan-no-kanojo

[tendousfingers]

attack on titan gives me anxiety, there still 8 chapters left to be adapted and no announcements 🤚🤚 my stress and anxiety levels rn 📈📈

#fingie.posts

[msdemonica]

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