#my biggest mistake was thinking one day: huh i wonder why kaigaku hates zenitsu so much... oh they're kinda similar....

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      i'm reposting a hc important to my portrayal of kaigaku bc i love him like the lil clown i am <3 keep in mind there's big spoilers for those not caught up with the manga.

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     i have to share that my brain all day has been banging pots and pans that a good deal of kaigaku’s portrayal in the manga is a skewed perception of him bc it’s after he became a demon and we already know from many experiences with other demons that their nature gets all twisted up and it doesn’t have to take long for this to happen!! like yes he did some horrible stuff and he was the worst to zenitsu, but ofc all that we see of him is negative bc we’re constantly seeing him from other people’s viewpoints!! ofc we’d dislike him when we’re witnessing him through zenitsu’s eyes and gyomei’s!! but just bc he was terrible to some people doesn’t mean he was terrible all the time.

     why do you think he became a demon slayer y’all....... when he could’ve made an escape any time after he left for final selection. gramps likely had to drag zenitsu to final selection, but not kaigaku -- lad had plenty of opportunity to abandon such a dangerous profession. so why do you think he became a slayer?? to redeem himself, to make amends for the blood on his hands, to maybe prove to himself he isn’t a monster. and maybe he hoped to feel like he belonged bc he could never feel at home anywhere, not really. and what do you think happened when muzan got his claws in him?? he took all the insecurity and resentment and turned the dial to 1000000000.

     i’m just saying that my portrayal will focus heavily on a kaigaku who isn’t the villain even though he isn’t exactly a great person or necessarily good all the time. i wanna focus on the fact that mistakes don’t have to define a person if they don’t let them. i wanna write the kaigaku who just wanted to fit in, to be recognized and praised and be accepted after going nearly his whole without ever feeling that way. and good GOSH I JUST LOVE THIS STUPID ANGRY THUNDER CHILD OKAY!!!!

#my biggest mistake was thinking one day: huh i wonder why kaigaku hates zenitsu so much... oh they're kinda similar.... #bc now i'm here ready to lose it over a dumb boy who made a million mistakes and just kept on making them #i got a lot of thoughts about kai and the way he was portrayed #like we're supposed to hate him -- he's the big bad for zenitsu to face and overcome #but i really think there was more to him than all that and i'm too far gone to not try and give him the development he could've had #like if kai met tanjiro?? there would've been no villain arc alright it would've been a big growth and healing arc instead #BUT LEMME STOP BC I REALLY WILL JUST KEEP GOING BYE #headcanons | kaigaku