#my head wouldnt hurt in a dream and i wouldnt be existential either

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my dreamsfeel real and my life feels like a dream

#my head wouldnt hurt in a dream and i wouldnt be existential either #i am happier there #never sad #i was playing with my cat #he was chasing me around the house #it was fun #my cat is dead #i like dreaming #yesterday was like a dream #i cant believe im allowed such happy things #it feels so faraway and untrue #like ill wake up tomorrow and find out im still there #im drifting and only when i catch myself existing does the world feel like its crumbling #i cant breathe very good but thats okay because its not permanent #just temporary just a week a month a year #i am real. it sounds like a lie. i am happy? maybe. im nervous for the future but in this moment i think i could be fine #i hope its real i hope i dont fuck it up. #i trust myself not to fuck it up. i trust myself. #even if it is a dream #it matters to me its real to me #ill make it the best fucking dream ive ever had #so that when i awaken in the womb #i will feel fulfilled