#my muscles are so fucking hard its disrupting nerve signals. my hands dont work like i need them to

[krawdad]

Massage therapist saying the equivalent of "oh shit that's actually really bad" over and over isn't instilling a ton of confidence but I guess I at least finally have someone who knows what they're doing actually working on me. Years too late by this point but I'll fucking take it.

#finally having someone verify that this is significant overuse injury doesnt really make me feel better #when i still have to like. deal with my entire fucking body being worn out. and fixing it feels kind of torture adjacent. #i dont feel like an hour at a time is going to do a whole lot unless ive got like a pit crew of elbows jabbing into me all at once #shit doesnt move unless you push really damn hard on it and its wearing this one therapist out to do #it didnt have to get this fucking bad and this is just part of my life now and i pray that i dont die mad about it #i hope i am able to afford fixing this problem because i cannot endure work like this #my muscles are so fucking hard its disrupting nerve signals. my hands dont work like i need them to #holding myself up just gets harder and harder #and doctors keep checking my blood trying to figure out how to treat this extensive muscle injury i am losing my mind