#my phone's usage fault. when low and behold! we go to an actual doctor. my vision didn't increase or decrease much and she says that

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#no because my parents have always been so weird to me from a medical standpoint #or abusive? neglectful. I don't know what i could possibly call this but #my Nystagmus. barely doing any research WHEN THEY ARE DOCTORS it's not like they don't know how to look stuff up #barely giving me any information on it. which crashed badly a few years ago when the dude at one of those glasses shops got scared by not #being able to give me full vision which promoted my parents into bullying me about possibly going blind and trying to twist it into being #my phone's usage fault. when low and behold! we go to an actual doctor. my vision didn't increase or decrease much and she says that #Nystagmus cannot be 20/20 THEN MY MOM STILL TRIES TO PROVE IT'S THE PHONE'S FAULT #also how they treated my Lyme Disease when i was little but I'm not. talking about that publicly. #and the fact that they were completely obsessed with the idea that I'd have a speech impediment back in the day #which was probably caused by the fact my sibling was Learns Very Early How To Talk And Does It Really Well flavour of autistic and I was #Barely Talks Very Late And Badly flavour of autistic #which meant they would force speech classes down my throat and when the teachers would go 'Nothing actually wrong with this kid' they'd #send me somewhere else #also the constant 'If you don't learn to talk correctly everybody will think you're stupid and they won't talk to you' which ok. ableist. #anyway the 'speech impediment' was your average 4 y o cannot pronounce r which i got over and they were still turning my life into hell #over it years down the line which meant i was in middle school convinced i had a speech impediment which at that point #WOULD HAVE BEEN A HEALTH ISSUE BUT WE DON'T TALK ABOUT THAT DO WE MOM/DAD #and i realised I don't only because my best friend went 'girl tf no you don't' #that is without to mention my father tried to ask me if i wanted surgery for my (inexistent) speech problem because he heard it fixed #someone else's kid problem #also in middle school i had some blood tests and they supposedly came back saying I'm anemic + i had strep but they didn't do anything #about that and at most blamed my anemia on my period which. i should probably get myself some bloodtests as an adult lol #then there is the one time they forced me to go to school with a mcfucking fever lol lmao #oh and also i would try to talk to them about these weird head tremors/seizures i have and they once again tried to blame it on my phone #only for my mom to see me having one recently and go 'oh yea lol i have them too it's normal' yes thank you /s #and they generally don't listen to me trying to sound the alarm about possible health issues i have unless my brother points them out... #aaaaand there is the entire shitshow they did to me when i was diagnosed with depression and put on pills #at least they are currently nicer about me saying i have autism but they didn't take me seriously at first neither... #egg.txt #vent