#n i've always loved going to the beach hehe i rlly love water

[noxtivagus]

i love nature so much!!!!

#🌙.rambles #idk i'm just thinking abt it rn #i really grew up w environments where there were trees n flowers n #ah yes pools! i rlly used to swim a lot fr #n i've always loved going to the beach hehe i rlly love water #n for a pretty big part of my life i lived close to my paternal grandparents n #technically it's a garden yeah #i can't remember the names of the flowers anymore but they were one of the ones i'd find at school too #from grade school to hs i'm still in the same school n the campus is very. nature #hehe i love the flowers n the trees #remembering my grandparents took (still does tho i think) care of quite a lot of potted plants too n some flowers i think #n i always wanted a pet bcs i love animals a lot but. never had one but my grandparents do #they had several dogs n several cats n. yeah >< i haven't visited though ever since we moved away back to my old home #oh yk i miss swimming i don't rlly do it often anymore but i used to quite a lot #n then piano.. i miss it sm. i still remember the feeling of the keys even though i haven't touched an actual piano in so long. #we just have a sort of uhh i forgot the name i just woke up from a nap but yeah it's not the same #i've been meaning to learn the guitar for a long time now. but more than that i really eventually want to learn the violin. #n then. i think it feels like a lot of things in my youth have been slipping away as of late. writing.. fuck it i miss actually writing hcs #n oneshots in like an organized compiled way compared to just dumping messages to myself. i miss all these a lot #i'll be productive now w school but i hope slowly i can. return to regaining my energy more consistently n make more steps again #towards the future i want to reach out to.