#ngl it kinda haunts me. I open the cap in the shower sometimes and it smells the same way Michael Crouch's voice sounds

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Oh My Gosh the People don't know how depressed I was during the highlight of my mcga hyperfixation

#Vent incoming #ladies it was BAD bad #I listened to those audiobooks on repeat just to feel something #I could never sleep. I tried asmr #I tried rituals before bed #i tried listening to mcga #nothing worked. up at 3 AM on a school night #getting straight As and no idea how I managed it #the smell of almond blossom shower gel from bath and body works #ngl it kinda haunts me. I open the cap in the shower sometimes and it smells the same way Michael Crouch's voice sounds #I was so tired all the time and I just wanted to be dead so badly #started self-harming regularly. Nothing that would leave marks #just enough for me to get my blood pumping #and through it I wrote and I blogged and I made new friends through this site #just writing down my feelings on this silly kids' book series #i'm too young to grieve for myself