#obviously while recognizing the inherent privilege I carry to be able to choose all of this

[abucketofweird]

Trying to remind myself that I'm so lucky

THIS IS JUST ME AFTER HAVING A VERY ROUGH FEW MONTHS REMINDING MYSELF THAT I DO LOVE ACADEMIA!!!!

Using this post to remind myself that I might be feeling miserable about it but I GET TO STUDY THE THING I LOVE FOR A DEGREE!??!!

1. I just posted a shit ton about PJO because the show ended on Tuesday but GUESS WHAT?! I still get to spend my time surrounded by Ancient Greek! The language credit I get to take for my classics major? Ancient Greek (HOW COOL IS THAT?!)

2. I Get to look at my favorite art pieces and see them not only for what they were then but also for how they have shaped our entire worldview! (you have not lived until you've seen the blatant COLOR of Ancient Greece) I have an assignment on the figure and its development in the Archaic Age because I CHOOSE A CLASS ABOUT ANCIENT GREEK ART

3. My class tomorrow is a review on the history of museums and how they have been specifically arranged, created, and used to tell a narrative (I just spent thirty minutes looking at a random museum exhibit for fun! But now I get to use a whole new set of tools and I can be a part of discussions that might change things in the future!!!)

Smth smth I need to remind myself that I choose the academia/humanities pathway BECAUSE I ADORE THESE THINGS AND I CAN SEE MYSELF WITH A FUTURE THAT IM HAPPY WITH (even if I might not get to live the "economically comfortable" life I also dream of)

#obviously while recognizing the inherent privilege I carry to be able to choose all of this #covid meant i slept when i needed to go refill my meds #now i am struggling to be alive bc withdrawal exists #i do this accidentally like four (4) times a year and I am aware of how horrible it is for me #i havent slept in over 48 hours oops