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[coyotevallie]

Talk 2 me abt ocd jedidiah and I will be your best friend 4ever and ever /nf

HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE YAY OKAY OKAY .... some more minor jedidiah ocd hc moments i think about daily because i could obviously talk about the whole oh his rituals are not all guaranteed to be 100% necessary bc hes an unreliable narrator blah blah "i need to do these things to keep my loved ones from dying" and "i cant say certain things or else ill hurt someone" are textbook ocd obsessions and compulsions blah blah . so have my more niche moments that i hc as being ocd symptoms

disclaimer yes i know some of these things overlap with either trauma responses or the very real pressure to keep sydney alive i know this ..... but these things can overlap with worsening ocd symptoms . xoxo

ive said this before . the shelled animal thing is a massive ocd moment . an extreme ocd moment . why does he have such a pathological fear of something thats harmless that he has to spend a presumably significant amount of his time researching them for his safety? suspicious . reads to me as an obsession w his phobia that he copes with through researching compulsively

ok this is talking very much about my own experience but the whole entire episode about jedidiah being extremely attached to objects that he prescribes INTENSE sentimental value to that he has breakdowns about losing reminds me a lot of how my own ocd hoarding tendencies present . not w the fruitfly because thats more just attachment, mainly the fact that he's extremely disgusted by the maggots and yet somehow cannot cope with losing them, his inability to let go of the stone that he didnt even really care about when he was playing with it, stuff like that . u could argue that this is just a trait specific to playing house but a: i wouldnt argue the maggots count under that and b: id say the way he behaves with clocks (having tons of them all over his room, leaving gears everywhere) and his journals (obsessing over them as if theyre real people to the degree of referring to them as being 'kidnapped') still leans into this even tho obviously this relates to his paranoia as well - theres a lot of overlap to me between jedidiahs trauma, jedidiahs ocd, and jedidiahs actual real rituals that he actually needs to do

this is again me projecting im just giving my little projectionesque thoughts here this is what u signed up for . but personally i often cope with ocd through coming up with a Different Contradictory obsessive belief that i am unable to shake to attempt to contradict my paranoia - thats what i hc hes doing when he does his whole "youre always fine" with sydney thing, often contradicting catostrophic ocd thinking with fantastical beliefs that everything automatically Will be okay can be a kinda unhealthy coping mech

i think abt him ten times a day . sorry this post is like 99% me talking abt hoarding lmao

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