#oh anyway the musical was great and evan was black and connor was south asian and jared was back to being jewish and alana was big and

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Got to see Dear Evan Hansen live tonight for the first time and the chokehold this musical has on me.

#connor #i could go on for days about how this musical is about grief and loss and yet #we never learn who connor really was #about how the vengeful ghost trope gets turned on its head and is just a mouthpiece for Evan's desires #how Connor’s memory gets used by so many people #because a major theme of this musical is the commodification of tragedy #and this missing piece is so problematic the book and the movie offered completely different solutions #which means there are now three conflicting versions of the same story #and you might be like oh but musicals can have different adaptations that's completely normal #but this is like #what if we specifically told you Connor's side of the story in the book and introduced you to a book only character #and that was two years after the broadway premiere #and then four years later we ignored all of that and made a critical change and gave you a clip of connor in rehab #and that critical change means it exists in a continuity outside the other two #i am so fucking feral about this and i don't know if anyone else cares but it has to mean something that the book and the movie separately #addressed the connor identity problem #oh anyway the musical was great and evan was black and connor was south asian and jared was back to being jewish and alana was big and #it was great