#oh right and (d) the conclusion i am forced to draw from their behavior invalidates pretty much every argument cam's had for me staying

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I am begging people to be more normal about people with eating disorders. like man I'm just trying to chill

#this weekend has been honestly really really awkward #the imending knowledge that rachael wants to have A Talk (that cam has warned me may end up w/ me getting broken up with) #the new job starting. TOMORROW #the blatant lies To My Face that both of them think im like... too Unstable to piece together #and i ADORE cam's mom but i'm stuck in this with the background knowledge that #(a) cam's mom is cool with it but rachael keeps avoiding the very large elephant in the room #(b) both cam and rachael have been actively lying to me for at least weeks; potentially longer #and (c) i am actively going to lose everything after my birthday and all of this is a facade that Will crumble the moment i turn 21 #so yeAh not doing. super hot #hozier was fun tho! #oh right and (d) the conclusion i am forced to draw from their behavior invalidates pretty much every argument cam's had for me staying #and i was truly just a toy : ) #vent post #lmao i am. alive