#vent post

[robogart]

Finances/student loan vent?

Tried to reach out about my student loans to the private loan company they’re through to see if I could lower the monthly payments at all since I’m having trouble with the $375 lately and they were basically like “you can go on forbearance (they call it extension and seem to lump it as just general deferment) but it will accrue interest and you might have to pay more after anyways 😝 and I’m just like…bike accident pose wtf ; w ;

I know so many people have student loan debt in the country but in my immediate circles I’m the only person I know who has it and I just feel like a big idiot? Like I signed the “Want To Be An Indebted Fool” contract at 17. Like everyone I know has parents who paid for everything and it’s just like.. damn… I know it’s no one’s fault but the systems but I can’t help but feel like I’m constantly doing everything wrong 😔

I’ll figure it out somehow and I know a lot of it is a combination of many things happening in my life right now but yeesh! I tried to watch that Financial Diet YouTube a couple friends have told me about but like..it’s not really relatable to my financial circumstances so it feels hard to take notes? And I end up feeling stupid again lmao - this vicious capitalist cycle! 😤

If I had nicer feet I’d sell pictures but damn even that market is hard to break into unless you do something niche! Saucy pictures are such a tough thing to navigate too 😮‍💨

Aghhh anyways! Just grumbling and trying to figure things out!! I’m just feeling a bit lost and stressed over it all 🤧 trying to figure out so many work/career things too woof it’s been a pretty stressful new year @ w @

If anyone has financial advice/youtubers/blogs/etc for low income people with debt that you find helpful, I’d love to hear about it 🙏💖 or like a super rich family member who wants to give like 38k away bc they’re bored? Let me know! 👀✨

#vent post #delete later? #long ramble sorry babes! just stressy spaghetti

[daintydoilypon]

Turning 30 on the 29th, and though I'm relieved to be out of my 20s, I'm entering, what a lot of the older people in my life call, "the most turbulent decade of your life". The decade where every big thing actually happens.

It feels like, even though I've been putting forth a lot of effort to improve my quality of life, those IN my life, such as friends, family, and my significant other, are actually holding me back from actually experiencing it. I find myself feeling frustrated more than anything these days, holding in a lot of things because they've been said millions of times, and yet, I'm the only one that seems to be changing anything. I can only do so much before, ultimately, it's solely in the other's court now. I no longer have the luxury of time, and my "patience of a Saint" that everyone labels me with, now feels Sisyphean at this point. I'm at a major crossroads and everyone is yelling at me, telling me which way to go, but it's just a cacophony of noise, blurred together by dissociation. I never planned to be at this crossroads in the first place, so I'm starting at each route with no want nor desire for either. It's unpleasant, this point in time, and I just hope to get past it.

#vent post #long post

[kittythatyaps]

"do you ever shut up?" im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry

#🍰.kittyaps #vent post #vent #tired #girlblogging #just a girl #bpd #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #bpd safe #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing

[zieanna]

Sometimes I wish we never met

#split.ends #skullcap.trip #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #bpd #bpd feels #bpd fp #bpd safe #bpd splitting #bpd problems #vent vent vent #cw vent #personal vent #vent post #vent blog #vent

[thequerydearys]

Hello everyone, here's my random and completely insane theory on the tiger who came for tea.

Now, is this theory needed? No, of course not. Am I looking way too deep into a children's book? Yes, yes, I am.

I was recently reading The Tiger who came for tea, and it got me thinking, "Is this tiger real?" And I now believe yes, yes it is, and why do I think this? Well when the tiger knocks at the Sophies looks up at it and is clearly shocked at the presents of a tigar at her door and you're probably wondering why didn't she shut the door and scream? Well a few reasons 1. It's a tiger... be cool or he'll munch you 2. I think these strange creatures are normal in this world and you're probably thinking "what make you think that?" The way the dad reacts at the end. His completely calm and relaxed when his child and wife tell him that a TIGER came over and ate all their food! His not like "Umm this sounds very unlikely. Are you sure there wasn't a gas leak?" my bro is like 😐 "say less let's go out for food" and all of you who've read the book are most likely like "wait but there's a cat at the end of the book clearly it was just a naughty kitty cat" and to that I say FOOLS! explain to me why Sophie and her family then buy a large can of TIGER FOOD at the end of the book? All in all, the tiger is a real scary creature that goes into people's houses and eats their food. Now now you might think this is silly why is this person going on about a silly little book. Well truth is I don't know anyways back to the point at hand

Before the dad comes home even Sophies mum says "I don't know what to do. I've got nothing for daddy's super the TIGER has eaten it all" meaning Sophies mum is clearly aware of these tigers and to end it off going back to the tiger food the book finishes with "and they also bought a very big tin of tiger food, IN CASE THE TIGER SHOULD COME TO TEA AGAIN!" why do shops sell tiger food? Why would he come again? What is happening?!.... well I don't know.

This has been a theory a GAM... bye.

#theory #silly #funny #stupid post #this is so stupid #weirdcore #my post #vent post #conspiracy theories #conspiracies

[katilyndrawz]

at least I have my turtles

#vent post #tmnt #tmnt fanart #rottmnt #katilyndrawz #rottmnt fanart #tmnt 2012 #tmnt 2012 fanart #tmnt 03 #mutant mayhem #personal art #been a rough couple of months

[puppyl3gs]

i just want to be a good dog so badly. i want to bring happiness to my person's life and make their day brighter and bring a smile to their face when they see me. but i cant. im trying so hard to be a good dog, i swear. but i still bite. i still flinch when my person moves too quickly next to me. i still cower when they lift their one of their feet near my body, and prepare for a blow to my side. i still growl at them when i doubt my safety. i'm still afraid. and i try so hard not to, but sometimes, i still bite.

i dont think im the good dog my person deserves. but im trying really hard for them. maybe, one day, ill bring them as much happiness as a good dog is supposed to.

#therian #canine therian #physically nonhuman #caninekin #dogkin #dog therian #canine poetry #canine writing #vent post

[pinkcultgirl]

lately all i can do is draw to clear my head

i don't know what to do with all this rage and its a little scary.

#digital art #my art #free palestine #free gaza #political art #politics #vent post #protest #political poster #poster #graphic design #colombia university #us imperialism #status quo #fuck israel #fuck the us #fuck america

[gecenin-karanligi-21]

Bırak olduğu gibi gelsin hayat. Herşeyi kontrol edemezsiniz. Bazen de boşverin. En doğrusu bu

#psikoloji #aşk #acı #hayat #spotify #hüzün #my post #postlarım #skapova #new post #edebiyat #original post #text post #post #vent post #postlarim #benim postum #nefret

[y-0-sha]

from early childhood i was trained to forgive everyone and for everything .

however there are people in life , after breaking up , whom over time your desire to communicate with does not appear . i’m ashamed of myself and feel pity for these people bc they treat me well rn (unlike me) (no matter how bad they treated me in the past) , a imbalance arises in me tbh . hence the permanent feeling that i am a bad person , like i have no right to be offended , angry or NOT to forgive ...... 🧐

#feelings #artists on tumblr #digital art #doodle #comics #relatable shit for me #doodle comics #vent post

[kuromis-tkl-blog]

#vent #vent post #venting #nso kangel #kangel nso #kangel #needy streamer overload #needy girl overdose #nso

[foxless]

why must everyone make fun of me? im trying my absolute fucking hardest to blend in as neurotypical and it just doesnt work i guess… fuck me for trying to do what i thought i was supposed to, right? /neg, nbh

#undiagnosed neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #undiagnosed autistic #autism #vent post #swearing

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

Hello! If you don't mind, this is half a vent and half an ask both to you and to your followers who have had some experience?

I feel like I want certain aspects of a romantic relationship, the idea of having someone "special" is very appealing. Especially since I find myself falling in the trap of romance tropes, and I really do feel that I want to find that one person who I'd feel safe being physically close with, and not just because I turn my brain off to suffer through it but to actually enjoy it.

I know that I'm rather attracted to men, in theory at least, but whenever there's even remotely a thought in my brain that a polite conversation may turn into something more I get nervous, kinda in a bad way. I feel like I want to put a barrier in and I'm afraid they'll be reading into my behaviour too much. It makes me feel as if I like to play pretend in my head but I'm too much of a coward when real life gets involved.

I've been identifying as ace for years now, and I just turned 24. No experience in the dating department, I've been slowly making my way to accepting being at least arospec as well, possibly just aro, but for some reason it's been so much harder for me. Asexuality just clicked. This I think I may be fighting because the idea of a relationship seems too nice to give up and I've already had a bad experience with an extremely undernegotiated QPR (ended quickly but left a bitter taste nevertheless).

I just wish I could not think about it? But I also feel like the societal expectations of romantic attraction are much more pressing than sexual one. I don't want to lead anyone on, and I don't want to feel this little bit of dread whenever I have a conversation with a guy who I know doesn't have a girlfriend. That's another sign of being aro, right? Being able to be comfortable only when the possibility of the other party wanting you romantically is non-existent.

Sorry for this being so long. Thank you for listening, either way.

Romance definitely has a hard to explain quality to it, and I think that can make it questioning if you're aro especially tricky. It is possible that anxiety you're feeling when a situation could turn romantic is a form of repulsion. It's not uncommon for romance repulsion to feel more like anxiety or nervousness, and for people feel like wanting to go and hide. Alloromantic people can be nervous too sometimes, but it usually comes with a feeling of anticipation and still being drawn to the other person. Or they will usually have either trouble with anxiety in other areas, or issues with romance (romance related trauma for example). Sometimes it can be tricky to know exactly what it is, but if the stuff below doesn't sound like you at all, than repulsion is a likely explanation.

The other thing I would point is that fully alloromantic people often have people in real life they are experience a romantic pull towards, who they really want to be in a romantic relationship with. And if you're not experiencing that, that could also be a strong sign of being aromantic.

Being aromantic, and even romance repulsed, if you are, does not mean you can't have a very important person in your life. I know you mentioned a QPR that didn't go well, and it's up to you if that's something you ever want to try again, but even if you don't. remember that deep bonds can come in all forms of relationships. All types of relationships, including friendships, familial relationships, etc. have the potential to be very special of very deep if you end up connecting to someone in the right way. So whatever path you choose to take, don't feel like this isn't possible.

I'll throw this out followers too if anyone wants to share their own thoughts or advice.

All the best, Anon! Good luck!

#vent post

[my--moon]

My story.

I have never told anyone this ever. None of my friends know, so this is the first time I've spoken about it. So here it goes I guess.

To the anons in my asks, threatening to slit my throat or rape me or asking to be my sugar daddy. I'd like to tell you a little something.

I am a rape victim as of age six.

Age six.

Six years old.

It was an older cousin, he said we should play truth or dare. It started as me being dared to do a cartwheel (I couldn't).

Then it started to get less innocent. He started to ask me to take a photo of him. When I said yes, he tried to slip his pants off.

He didn't go through with this idea though.

Later, he asks me to play a special game. Where I'd take my clothes off and he'd draw pictures on me with his finger

He started at my shoulder and went down to my clit.

I eventually screamed out to my aunt, who was out smoking at the time. She saw the scene and my cousin tried to run away.

He packed his stuff and threatened to kill himself while walking away. At 10:34pm at night.

I, was crying because I thought I did something wrong. I tried to fall asleep and when I wake up my mother's right there, taking me back to the car.

I haven't seen my cousin since then and I never plan to.

I don't fucking care if it was a game or a joke. What he did was wrong and it has affected me deeply, now every time I see a older boy even close to resembling his appearance or mannerisms—

I get hateful, I become rude to them. Calling them bitches before they can get close to me.

Now, I get scared anytime I see an older boy comes close to 5 meters near me. I'm scared it'll happen again.

I'm afraid to go on school camps without someone I know constantly with me because what if it happens again?

These what ifs drown my mind constantly. It shouldn't be like this.

I wish I wasn't like this, but it's not my fault for acting like this anyway.

So to those bitches in my asks or 12 people in my messages asking to send nudes, please fuck off and never interact with me or my mutuals.

— signed @my--moon.

#TW rape #tw sa #tw abuse #vent post #anti rape #sa mention #tw #trauma #sa vent #sa survivor #sa tw #women shouldn't be afraid of you.

[worlds-smallest-epsilon]

hands up if you’re tired and cranky because of stupid shit

#vent post

[beartitled]

Can you do some more comics with Francis mosses

I can, but the problem is

That I’m pretty much out of ideas and I’m progressively getting tired of tnmn fandom

Ppl who look at my tags probably noticed that 😓

More of my thoughts under read more for curious ppl

(short answer maybe I will do more, but I desperately need a break from tnmn)

! Just a general warning: this came out kinda long + sort of venty

Originally I planned to do 1 comic drop and move on, but got stuck bc ppl liked tnmn comics and kept asking for more (and still do-)

Generally I don’t mind doing more if the ideas are there, but I want to address this: I’m tired

I know blowing up is usually a good thing and I appreciate people enjoying my stuff

But it’s exhausting to see that tnmn is the only type of content which is relevant, to the point that my own projects or stuff I enjoy are just kinda.. ignored

It’s fair – again my blog is heavily fandom based

(+Tsp were and still is kinda the focus)

But with tnmn fandom it’s a bit… different

Maybe I’m biased and it’s just my negative experience with tiktok comments

Remember this art?

cleaning up transphobic comments was.. um tough

Again, I get that you can’t be in that neat bubble completely sheltered from negativity

Humans are just assholes by nature really/j

So I was expecting the backlash, but not that much

I think maybe tsp fandom spoiled me a bit (in a good way), bc I got a feeling that everyone in tsp was positive of any lgbt+ headcanons and just generally more supportive

(don’t get me wrong, there ARE problems in tsp community too, taking narrators design controversy into account as one of the examples)

Obviously every fandom always has it’s own issues, show me at least one fandom that didn’t have some sort of meaningless controversy or some sort of problematic people in it

It happens

But it leaves a bad taste in your mouth sometimes

And for me personally it only added to not so pleasant experience

The thing I also noticed, when I interacted with other fandoms

Ppl wrote positive stuff first and foremost, not really asking for anything

Here it’s just “hey more. I want more. Do more. Do this character. Do this. Do more.”

The only reason I kept doing more, because likes, reblogs, views – these comics get a ton of attention

there is a audience to please alright

But this thing comes with a pressure tho

and it shows

so let me illustrate

This bookcase

Is my shame

Because I was so rushing, I just copied and colour corrected this bookcase from my diploma comic and pasted it here in hopes for the best

💥IT LOOKS HORRIBLE OKAY💥

Usually it’s normal to take materials used in other projects

the not so normal part is

to leave it like that because your stress reducing tea doesn’t work and you don’t really have time to redraw it

my m en ta l s t a t e i s f i n e ah ah h ah ah

Ok but jokes aside: it’s really tempting, to just abandon everything and produce content like some sort of content farm

But I don’t want to, I’m forcing myself and it makes my art worse

Yes it’s subtle, new people won’t even see this

But I’m not improving

And I don’t enjoy just anxiously popping out comics because everyone keeps asking

I can give it my all to something when I’m passionate, but just “hey I’m getting attention” is not the best motivator

Attention like that does get to my head, I know that I will probably give in again and do more, bc I will compare my posts engagement

But what’s the point of recognition, when you feel.. so numb about it…

Sorry for a mountain of text and thank you for ppl who actually took their time to read it

It’s been building up for a while and I feel like people need to know the reason why I’m not so enthusiastic about making “more”

I’m not necessarily completely abandoning this fandom

I still plan to do ask/suggestions event for STP (I’m just making sure I can dedicate my time to it, that’s why it’s taking so long) and I can add tnmn to the mix

Like STP+tnmn kind of deal

But for now – I need a break

At least for a little bit

#bear answers #vent post #nothing serious just a bunch not so positive thoughts #tnmn #that’s not my neighbor #tnmn fandom #thoughts #fandom thoughts #apologies for possible mistakes/typos