#ok not risks? maybe? ive always been super cautious in relationships esp romantic ones

[steampunkedparm]

reading back through our first conversation vs now and. gods i was doomed from the start wasn't i

#like. you can tell i was a lil apprehensive just cus. 'woah new person ok this is a lil scary but m vibin ig' #but even with the apprehension i was. super open?? at least compared to how I usually am as im. very closed off when it comes to a #lot of stuff lol. which. may sound surprising lol #theres maybe. one person or two i truely talk to ab things lol #woah now its 3 #I'm getting sidetracked #its. wild how many risks i took and continue to take with them #ok not risks? maybe? ive always been super cautious in relationships esp romantic ones #(one of my biggest failings lol. I'll admit to that. my inability to initiate out of anxiety and over cautiousness fucked up two of my #relationships. obvs there were a few more issues but yk >:P) #ive always tried to be. super realistic but to a fault #im letting myself have hope with this one #I want it to be them so bad dude im so far in its. Bad. m. genuinely in love with this person fuck #idk this is prolly very silly and far to mushy to actually post lol #rigs your gay #also the ballsiest ive been in a relationship? #no wonder everyone thinks m a bottom /hj