#okay maybe i’m being sensitive and overemotional again idk idk

[darling-im-wonderstruck]

hi sorry i just needed to let this out somewhere… feel free to ignore since this is personal !!!

i am soo sooooo tired of always being treated as like a second option. i think the reason why is bc i put so much value into others and i hate the thought of people feeling like they don’t matter to me so i ALWAYS make sure that everyone feels included no matter what. and i think i’m realizing that i do that because i myself know and hate that feeling. the feeling of not being important, not feeling valued, not being cared for enough.

like i know that me being second best isn’t always the case but it happens with the people that matter to me most and it hurts so much :(

either that or i’m just tooooooo sensitive which, i wouldn’t be surprised if i was called that, maybe i’m overreacting ????? i dunno, it’s so hard for me to think about.

#funny how i’m so extremely extroverted and i socialize so openly but i still feel so lonely #friend-wise at least #like i have so many friends and people around me but the ppl who i value most are the ones who don’t care about me as much #and the people who aren’t as close to me put even more value in me than those i consider to be my closest friends #which hurts so bad ughhhh #okay maybe i’m being sensitive and overemotional again idk idk #i mean this irl btw… my moots r my safe space i love you all :( <3