#oooooooooooooooooooo I was passive agressive at him

[cosmic--marmalade]

Ex no.2 rant in tags

#oooooooooooooooooooo I was passive agressive at him #he's still feels the same way I feel about him #neither of us can say it out loud anymore because it hurts so fucking much #but I told him he can't just pull some shit on me like we're still together #e.g. when he made a joke about doing numbers at a temple function and I said 'lol I guess we'll never know now' #Like motherfucker I Told You that I's be mean about it next time you were thoughtless about it #i know it was petty BUT!!! #you can't just make jokes and then say shit like that with your whole chest when you're not with me anymore and expect me to just #smile and fuckin nod aling #You Missed Your Chance At Coming To Temple With Me When You Chose Someone Else To My Face #god I would have dropped everything and run away with him too #i wanted that big green couch and the kitchen with our names painted into flowers along the ceiling border #i would have married him and left our other partners behind in heartbeat #I didn't even realize that part until after we broke up #stop comparing me to Arwen and dark eyed muses from the pre-raphelite period and getting mad when I lose my shit and get weird about it #MOST EXES DON'T COMPARE THE PERSON THEY'RE STILL IN LOVE WITH TO ICONIC SEX SYMBOLS AND IT GIRLS AND PRETEND TO BE NORMAL ABOUT IT #YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH ME STILL AND IT MAKES ME BLEED OVER EVERYTHING I HAVE TRIED TO BUILD TO GET OVER YOU #Fuck you for making me love you #Fuck you for thinking you'd still get to come to temple with me one day #Fuck You for telling me I look like Circe/a John Waterhouse painting/Emma Hamilton/every dark eyed dark haired painted woman you see #you literally tell me how you see me in everything how even when you're with J that you see me everywhere #how you think about me all the time #Stop consuming me body and soul and maybe I'll be nicer when you make a joke about coming into intimate Jewish spaces with me #god at least ex no.1 had the decency to admit that he fucked up every chance I gave him and isn't pretending like it's fine