#or if i hadn't thought the violin looked cool bc i saw it in a movie then i wouldn'tve joined orchestra in 6th grade

[nero-neptune]

idk, i just think that (to a point) Everyone's a product of the media they consume. that's why certain media is called 'formative', esp if you watched it young. one thing you watched/read could’ve lead to an interest which could’ve gotten you to learn/participate in/avoid something you wouldn’t have otherwise. take away all the books you’ve read, movies you’ve watched, music you've listened to, etc etc- you’re likely a totally different person. which is neither good nor bad, that's just called being a person who lives on planet earth.

#if i went back in time to middle school and made it so twilight wasn't on hold and i finally read at the age of 11 #pretty sure i could've become a twilight fan (opening a whole new branch of who i could turn out to be) #or how i was This Close to becoming a directioner (and i probably would've been a whole new person due to that) #or how i only got into doctor who because i was recommended hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy (my first real intro to scifi books) #and without that i probably wouldn't have stayed on tumblr (which i only made bc of my interest in animation (more media consumption lol)) #bc it's the who in superwholock that cemented my desire to make an account #or if i hadn't thought the violin looked cool bc i saw it in a movie then i wouldn'tve joined orchestra in 6th grade #(and then discovered i hated orchestra so then i joined band. and then i was offered the choice of baritone or sax and i chose baritone) #and marching band (which i later joined) defined all 4 years of my high school #something that straight up would not have happened if i hadn't thought a violin player looked cool in a movie i saw as a kid #boom! butterfly effect! #so who am i without all these experiences bc of the media i consumed? idk. if they exist in an alternate timeline #without any of the things that make me Me #that's a stranger for all intents and purposes #rambles