#people were really interested and curious about mlad and then i started posting less so people moved on

[munch-mumbles]

farts

#ugh i know its an inherently harmful mindset to base your arts worth on how much engagement it gets #and i HAVE been trying to take the steps to obsess over it less but its just like. its difficult not to feel like i failed to deliver #people were really interested and curious about mlad and then i started posting less so people moved on #and now it really feels like i wasted my chance #my art style itself has improved but the person and the writing behind it has decayed and people can smell it #im just frustrated with myself. if i just kept it together i couldve done some really cool stuff but im never going to have that kind of #interest in my work again #been trying to move my focus to just drawing what i want but part of my driving force to make me want to create was knowing people wanted #to see that work #im complaining in circles sorry its just something that weighs on me because i know its my fault ultimately #sometimes i do get inspiration to do something really big for mlad but im too scared of my shit flopping now #which is also just a me skill issue