#perhaps i let things get to m head too easily :c bcos now i jus feel rllie inadequate

[hwaitham]

aa . had a sad dream during my afternoon nap . . . 's not all That awful . . :c but thinking abt it makes m chest hurt so actually ! perhaps it is . . . me n haitham were rllie close pals in it but i had a big fat ginormous crush on him , so i confided in kaveh . . only to be told that al haitham was hopelessly in love with my best fren ! ! ! ໒꒰ྀི˃ ˂ഃ ꒱ྀི১ it was obvi she had feelings for him too . . da three of us would go to cafes often n i had to swallow my anguish watching both of em interact n chat about things dat would go over my head . . . it hurt so ridiculously bad ! mostly bcos i wub my friend sooo much ! n of course i alwys wnt her to be happie n dat takes precedence over anything else to mi , even if that means watching her n al haitham be in love . . she is so sweet n beautiful n talented n funny n intelligent n just . Perfect in everyone's eyes . ๐·°(৹˃̵﹏˂̵৹)°·๐ so it is like . of Course he would pick her over me ! ! ! arghhhh

#𓈒 ۫ 𝓹𝓾𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓮 𐂯 𝓹𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮𝓼 ₊⠀ೀ #i kno it is a mere dream but . . . aaaakk ; ; #perhaps i let things get to m head too easily :c bcos now i jus feel rllie inadequate #like m too dumb too ordinary for him . i am nothing special . ya know ! ! ! #m not very booksmart despite being a grad student . i am not d best with words and i am quiet and i don't stand out #im clumsy n not very prettie n clingy n annoying #i hav nothing to offer to da wrld except my love n kindness . but even then . would that be enough to catch his eye ?? #:c i dunnooo . aah pls dont feel like u need to cheer me up or anything i am just being silly ! ! ! #silly coco getting all sad over something so menial . . it will be okayyy ! ♡