#perhaps i should just read the manga. but i need to shower first b4 i settle down on the couch

[orcelito]

Did a bit of a number on my knuckles. Hands r hard to bruise, but there's the shade of a bruise on the outside edge of my hand, right at the knuckle. That really was not intentional.

#speculation nation #self harm ment/ #tagging just bc well. you know #it was in the middle of a terrible awful rush and i needed SOMETHING to keep me focused #combined with my general agitation of it all. i hit my hand pretty hard against the ice machine. just an instant Snap Bang #sometimes i forget how strong i am. & how that can translate to stuff like this. #combined with the scrape from later that night that really was accidental. my hand has been annoying me. #i went to drum a rhythm on the counter earlier today only to be like 'Ouch' bc it. hurt lol #today was just spent vibing to music. singing to songs i knew and dancing to any i vibed with #even with the limitations. im in a decent mood todat #... i dont want to do dishes. maybe i can do them tomorrow. i Really dont want to do dishes. #im a little bit tired of reading smut. im actually not that much in the mood for it. it's just kinda what's there i guess #endlessly devouring anything relatively long for this pairing bc i want it very much. i want the drama and angst tho not the smut #perhaps i should just read the manga. but i need to shower first b4 i settle down on the couch #and i still have manager meeting in a few hours 😭😭😭 ughhhh #there really is no continuous thread for all these topics aside from this is everything im thinking about rn #i really need to go to bed at a decent time tonight. no more 4 hours of sleep for no fuckin reason. yea