#perhaps im guilty of referencin myself so much in the mika i write but

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umm re: prev post i will say it anyway since this is a safe space...

#it might b a lil over the top but #i keep thinkin of. my own complexes in relation to humanity n nature n love n d3@th #fact is i cant handle d3@th #which may come as a surprise since im SO heavily into the grotesque n the macabre #perhaps im guilty of referencin myself so much in the mika i write but #i think he cant handle it either. i don think he can handle losin a loved one to it & i think hes terrified of it to the point of panic n #obsession #i Think the most terrifyin part to me is havin no control over it #ithink mika wud b inclined to take matters into his own hands iykwim. cause dat takes the control back from the fear #i know wantin to 'preserve' the beauty of his subject is more of a Shu characteristic generally - ie the whole doll thing - but i think #mika wld b prone to smth similar with his stubborness & aversion to change & the conflict i mentionrd before #(projection lvl 2000) #of course it has to b romantic though. so all i can think of is mika takin care of his partners body one last time before #endin their life - i havnt decided yet if itd b likr. quick n painless or drawn out n passionate. i dumno if he'd wanna damage #their body far too much or make it unrecognisable #BUT HERES TEH BEST PART. mikas love for stuffies. plushies. teddies. #i can imagine him sewin a very special one. its fluffy n big n huggable #wudn dat b the most Mika way of immortalisin his darlin cuz i sure think it is #so wat if the teddy is soppin with blood as he clings onto it with tremblin hands #etc n so on #does this sound too silly?