#relatedly i got my fucking p*riod which im sure has no bearing at all as to why ive been miserable for weeks. and now im gonna be in pain wh

[pepprs]

it’s like i made it this far only to completely fucking crash and burn and give up right in front of the people who believed i could do it and who i made to trust me to do it. awesome

#purrs #every time i try to work on my capstone i start hysterically sobbing so i just emailed my counselor (since she never replied after telling m #me that i missed our session even though i wrote back literally 3 minutes later when there were still 40 mins left) to ask if she could plea #please pretty please meet with me tomorrow bc i am fucking dying right now. i hope she sees it bc ive been crying for like an hour and my ey #eyes actually hurt. I need to go to bed and ineed to get permission from everyone to give up because i just can’t do it. i can’t #relatedly i got my fucking p*riod which im sure has no bearing at all as to why ive been miserable for weeks. and now im gonna be in pain wh #while finishing this too which is exactly what i need right now #like i do not see a way out of this other than a) excruciating suffering or b) giving up. the absolute DESPAIR of it all #literally the only reason i am not sewerslidal rn like i was last semester (🥴) is bc im about to graduate and never have to deal with this #shit again once it’s done EXCEPT for the fact that if certain things go certain ways i may forever have to live with the unbearable shame o #of having failed my motherfucking capstone project after working on it for 3 years. like the literal L of it all #*burns thru half a box of tissues in one evening* this is normal. this is exactly what finishing your degree is supposed to feel like