#resuming her life after basically having a 'fuck everything' sphere hunter arc.

[braskide]

i wanted to make a cute "oh yuna as your cute gf 😊” but then i started thinking about x-2.5 and will and what they showed us of her relationship with ti ( i will never accept that as canon but it has interesting points ), and how it shows / my main verse has every point showing how a relationship with her is actually super hard to maintain when you think about it, how many hardships to overcome to actually be together. how much the ~leftover of her trauma shows in the relationships with other people, how changed she is as a woman, how she keeps herself busy with everything / her new 'high summoner' routine, all to not.. . think.. .? all to not face what growing up in the way she did has damaged for her. being with someone that holds her shoulders and makes her face reality. realizing that she cannot outrun her buried demons. understanding that cherishing someone is okay again. that it does not need to be so ephemeral anymore. that life can be worth living again. that the guilt she feels for turning her life around instead of processing her traumas can also be overcome. she's a lot of work, actually.

#outofcharacter. #i always think like. why did nojima think that ti and yu breaking up / parting ways the way they did made sense in x-2.5 / will. #and although i think it's such absolute crap and dog poop - #i do understand why ; to some degree? #like obviously she's a grown person now and so is he ; #getting used to the new life and what not — #resuming her life after basically having a 'fuck everything' sphere hunter arc. #and even then it didn't work cause she was still stuck dealing and facing her demons LMFAO. #although ; when she stops being a sphere hunter.. . she's really left with her demons huh. #so i understand why she could be a lot of work to navigate. #why she requires a lot of attention and care. #i love her actually. .. and she deserves to rest. #she deserves to let herself have anything for herself!!! ! #get in touch with the side of her that wants to live!!! ! that wants to experience everything good about life and love and companionship !!