#i do understand why ; to some degree?

[arsenicflame]

the thing about autistic izzy for me is that he isnt that uwu soft romanticised type of autistic. hes brash, he doesnt know how to process his emotions, hes constantly on the verge of being overstimulated- if things arent done the way he expects them to be done, if his routine is fucked with hes going to lose it

#more representation for autistic characters that aren't palatable please #hears my new thing i think would fix izzy: some noise cancelling headphones #hm i could definitely make more thoughts on this but my brain is not working rn #post inspired by my coworkers not doing things how i would do them and it upsetting me to an irrational degree #i understand why he is ~like that~ over ship maintenance even when everyone else thinks it doesn't matter #nyxtalks #izzy hands #israel hands #someone let me know if some of these things aren't considered autistic traits lol its all based on my personal experience #he is just like me fr #ofmd #a certified nyx post

[the-casbah-way]

i just think it's so unfair that when i left high school my entire support system was gone overnight and i was just expected to get on with it with no help and because i wasn't diagnosed back then no one believed me or accommodated for me or cared, so i had to postpone my degree for two years and watch all my friends graduate without me and move to different cities and i went from being a straight a student who never had to study in their life to barely scraping the minimum grades and never showing up to class because i had convinced myself i was too stupid and slow to ever get my degree because i wasn't getting any of the support i kept asking for and was expected to read and listen to lectures without any help and keep up with everyone else when none of my support needs were being met. and now after trying for five years to find a way to get the degree i always wanted my uni have told me they're not going to let me do it anymore because of one module requirement that i missed because i was in hospital against my own choice. and even after i said i would use the entirety of my savings which i specifically worked for so that i could have a safety net for my studies to pay for the extra year required to get the module they need they've still said no. even though there's a bunch of spare places on the course and it wouldn't impact my timetable at all. even though i got As in every assignment i did for that course compared the the Bs and Cs i used to get in every other subject. even when i told them that i can't keep doing a science based humanities subject because i have dyscalculia and it's literally impossible for me to get through a single sentence of reading on my own, compared to the module i want to do where my lecturer literally bought me extra course textbooks with his own money because i finished everything else on the reading list in my own time and he said he was impressed with the work i sent him. i told them that me and my brother are the first in my family to go to uni, and how neither of my parents finished school or have any qualifications, and i never though in a million years i would ever get to have a degree and i've had everything stacked against me because their uni is 99% rich able bodied neurotypicals and i'm so close to graduating even though i had no support at all for the first four years. and they still don't care. they can't even give me a reason as to why they won't let me get the degree i want. they just keep saying 'we're not in a position to let you do the extra module' over and over again and i don't even understand what they mean. i'm going to pay for it myself. they have spare spaces on the course. i don't understand what else i can do to make them listen. they talk so much about diversity and accessibility yet every other poor and disabled person i talk to (and there's barely fucking any at this uni because they don't want us to be there) has been through similar experiences and had opportunities taken away from them because they were too unwell to attend one single fucking class. i don't know what to do but i've been here way too long and tried way too hard to drop out now. but i also can't bear to not to the degree i've always dreamed of. i don't want to do anything else

#this is what triggered my whole episode last week or whenever it was i tried to off myself #i've been ignoring it since then so that i can become sane again but #it's been stuck in my brain the whole time and i don't know what to do about it #i can't accept it and move on because i don't understand why it's happening and i don't think it's fair #but idk what to do and i don't want to kick up a fuss or act like i'm being like victimised or some shit #it's just. i only missed that module because i was literally on a drip and almost had to get a blood transfusion #it wasn't like i couldn't be arsed to show up. i was really sick and it was also when i found out my dad had cancer again idk #even if i'd had it in me to show up to classes i wouldn't have taken anything in or passed my assignments #and i told them that and they said it was fine #if they'd told me it would mean i wouldn't get my degree i would've done something about it #idk what i could've done but i would've done something

[thueenz]

for real though that post is so true on the love front i think about it all the time like why is everyone so LOVELESS not even just in like cishetero marriages where they hate each other just in general like platonic too. it drives me craaazy when im exposed to it like why are ppl like this !! why dont you love your friends and partner!! its like everything is a social game that theyre playing just for validation and lacking real connection and its a game where theyre always about 2 steps away from being bitter and hateful towards their friends/lover like STOOOOP! im someone who values love and kindness so much and it baffles me. why do you hate your partner! why do you talk about them like theyre an object of validation! why are you dating someone you clearly dislike! why are u so mean to ur friends behind their backs im cryin. why do you up and abandon them the second you get a partner bc you dont value them over the romantic validation you get. ive always been such an affectionate person at heart and i value what my friends say so much and i always find myself feeling so distant from people in relationships because they just feel?? so shallow?? and distant from me. like i think oh this preson gets me but theres ppl who say the same things how they value kindness and love but its always like, immediately clear they are actually a deeply mean person and just enjoy feeling like theyre 'good'. the way society functions with relationships feels so intensely shallow and i cannot connect to it at all. i love my friends and i love people and i always want to understand them and reach out with compassion and be close to them physically and emotionally speaking and talk a lot and listen to them. however im cursed to live in a world of 1 word responses if any at all and shallow relationships where no one gaf about each other and then i get told i talk too much. hello? *tapping mic* hello? is this thing on? be filled with whimsy and love going forward please. anyway does anyone else feel this way or is it just me feel free to talk about it if youd like

#thank god i finally found some friends who are like this too it was so rough before #it sucks tho bc ive been so tired lately its hard for me to live up to this #which i dont hate myself for its valid its just like waaah i wanna have the energy to really put my all in friendships again #for half my life my biggest want and goal in life has been to be someone approachable and who seems kind #even to people with anxiety and i think growing up with anxiety greatly shaped that #i value being kind and compassionate and understanding to such a degree that i spent and still spend time actively working #towards that goal and unlearning being judgemental and bitter #bc i want to be kind so badly and to put kindness in the world... #no but seirously why do people date ppl they dont like #wym you guys arent so unabashedly in love that you practically see hearts thinking of them #wym your entire chest doesnt fill with joy and the simple prospect of them experiencing lifes small joys no matter how little and mundane #to love so wholly that you strive to be a good person not out of guilt or feeling like you are bad but because you desire so deeply to be #good for them and put as much goodness in their life as you can because its what they deserve...💙💙 #ANYWAY LMFAO! im sappy asf as a person sorry everyone but also not sorry #pers

[zevrans]

i finally finished bg3 2 nights ago ya'll 😭🥺

#i specifically looked up when i made a post about that my pc can run bg3 it was 2 months ago damn!! #it took me so long with trying to do every sidequest and i still managed to miss a lot of stuff 😳 #i skipped a couple of act 3 quests too i skipped dribbles that baldur mouth gazette one and i think some others too #because i couldnt be bothered anymore trying to finish it faster 😂😭 #and i still misssed stuff in act 1 🤡 for example that shovel thingie or what's it called 😭 #anyways the ending overall i liked but there's almost no companion endings or what?? #i felt like we deserved a cutscene for each companion and an extended for romanced one?? #and i didnt even get to see karlach last time 🥺 it just said that her time is short and it skipped to astarion future plans scene 😭 #i didnt want my tav turn illithid so i turned orpheus although ididnt want that for him too but oh well 😫 #still don't understand why emperor straight up did 360 degree turn and joined the absolute even before i freed orpheus #like he didnt consider even for a sec orpheus would provide shield for him even tho he later agreed emp was right #about this whole thing needing and illithid i mean #anyways im considering doibg gale romance run but now i need mods and to decide if i replay from start #or from my act 2 save in moonrise where if i reject astarion 🙈 my gale romance activates??

[erstwhile-elster]

Oof

#yeah not going out again by myself any time soon #wound up coming home and just crying myself asleep after getting overwhelmed by an oppressive sense of loneliness #i just don't get why it anymore #why is it so hard for me? why do I seem to be so out of place everywhere i go? #i know to some degree i do it to myself but even when i try #it all just seems to not be enough #I'm just left feeling like I'm something so wrong #sometimes i feel like I'm being punished having a good day just for the next to hurt #and I'm hardly good in any way but i can't imagine I've done anything to deserve to feel like this so often #i just don't understand why I seem to have to feel so alone no matter where i am what's happening who I'm with #a constant outsider even when surrounded by people I've known for so long who call me their friend even #i just want to feel like i belong somewhere

[beastking-golion]

Finished my run of Mortum’s romance and.

#full spoilers in these tags here my guys #fhr #fallen hero retribution #fhr spoilers #fallen hero retribution spoilers #okay so 1. love this gal she’s so awesome and knowing she vented to her friend about our dumbass decisions makes me weirdly happy #you are so girlboss mortum #anyways 2. shes so lovey dovey and the fact she takes the time to keep you comfortable first is sooooo ❤️ #her specifically getting cozy with you only after establishing you’re comfortable is so sweet of her #dont ‘bar is on the floor’ me btw because I have another piece to that in why it makes me so emotional #gonna talk about dubious consent here for a second so BIG warning okie? okie. #3. the scene after you reveal yourself as a regene to her and she asks why you had sex with her and you explain how you do things- #for humans because that’s what you were built to do meaning you acted for her desires not your own meaning she ‘pushed’ you into doing it #that was so devastating and I mean specifically for her as someone who clearly values consent a shit ton #yes you may have liked it but you did it cause you thought it would make her happy not because you wanted it like oh my god that hurts #she prolly understands regenes at least to some sort of degree shes a smart well connected woman so learning your bf is actually a regene- #has gotta have so many cogs and questions and worries shooting through her mind #you were made to serve humans you were controlled and abused by doctors like her you clearly fear her to some aspect #its heart breaking because of how much love she shows you and how much love she just has in general even as a villain #sorry yall I just can’t stop thinking about that scene like that had to have been so harrowing for her #it’s not your fault mortum you literally couldn’t have known even if you tried because our ass is so secretive #but it felt like it left off on a hopeful note #you both understand things so deeply about each other now and you can rebuild #start over and try again in a better safer way #one where you’re honest with her #AAWASG TH GFHFHFNGN it was really good it was so good #love that gal mortum so much #built out of love and vinegar she’s so awesome sauce #and with that I’ve played all the fhr2 romances #I can’t decide which romance is my favorite but I know which is my least (and it’s not my bbg mortum love ya)

[oatbugs]

i feel conflicted abt my relationship...need advice etc . in tags . pls i need input sm

#i love my gf a lot and i think our relationship is doing rly good rn . i miss her a lot bc im in a diff country to her but ill see her #in a few weeks etc. anyway things are good....HOWERVER. i am worried abt . our future #like u are supposed to live in the moment and have fun and be young etc etc but this is like..the fact that its going well #is making me consider how our life paths would go tgth and if it would be fair to stay in a relationship u know wont work forever. like #this was one of the reasons why i felt hesitant at first etc. basically i swore to myself i would only date an academic or at least someone #who like. has. A Thing. that they are working towards that they are rly rly passionate abt. bc i thought it just wouldnt work out otherwise #and it seemed after a while of talking that she IS like that...shes applying for a graphic design degree and she seems to genuinely #love art etc so much and also she is amazing at it. HOWRVER...she hasnt drawn in a while #and is working a min wage job despite meaning to quit for ages...and as far as im aware #she still hasnt made a portfolio...etc etc. but im so confused bc like...shes great and ik she can do it i just dont #understand why she wont. she could also get an internship etc in the relevant field but i still dont get it...and its not my place to be #pushy abt it. like i already suggested these things and asked abt them but i dont want to ask any more bc like. its her choice #what she does w her life etc. but anyway its like...am i being pessimistic/impatient and everything is gonna #go well for her or do i hold genuine concerns. and if the latter/both potentially...is it unfair to be like #hey babe ik things are amazing rn but we have to reevaluate bc idk if in 10 yrs i would be happy w where we are #my friend was like. Break Up W Her from the beginning bc he thinks u shouldn't get into a relationship w smn whom you think will not also #elevate u in some way..and ur life paths dont align etc...but he is genuinely married to his academics like hes sworn off #love so i didnt rly listen bc hes rly extreme w his. love gets in the way of academics. etc #but also his point was valid i think? that you want the person u spend ur life w to elevate you. u want them to challenge you and make you #want to work harder and be better and achieve more and more...and i do want that and i have been trying to be that for them #but A) i can only be that to a reasonable extent for them before it starts being like nagging/being pushy and #B) i feel like if they end up going the way they are rn they can never be that for me. is that bad #like am i a horrible person for thinking this way. obviously i am not casting a moral judgement on her or anyone #for whatever path in life they choose to go down but also is it like...Silly to give up on a perfectly good #relationship bc ur like. as it stands i do not see you walking alongside me in 10 yrs etc #like im lich rally 20 . but what if it DOES end up going rly well and it DOES end up being thr case that we end up staying together #and then im like. feeling discouraged bc my partner in life is just not the kind of person i imagined being w when i was 19 or 20... #like in terms of careers etc. more importantly is this a discussion i should have w her . bc i literally do not know how to raise this #without sounding like a dick but is that bc i...am being a dick? is this a bad thing ?? is this thought not that of a good person ? #it sounds so WEIRD to be like hey babe either u have to start being more ambitious and insane abt ur art or i might break up w you. like :/

[icewindandboringhorror]

I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes* #tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc. #I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character. #it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way. #at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

[silverislander]

prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding. #i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/ #a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!! #for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

[gameofthronedd]

I really wish we actually got to see why/how Rhaenyra's attitude to motherhood changed. A big part of her pre-timeskip storyline is this fear and aversion to becoming her mother. Not to mention her conflicting attitude towards duty and responsibility. I would have really liked to see her develop and her attitude shift, and understand her character a bit better in that way.

#hotd #house of the dragon #rhaenyra targaryen #hotd thoughts #like I've said before I don't dislike Rhaenyra but I DO struggle to connect with/understand her to the same degree as Alicent #and that might be my fault tbh but I'm endeavouring to allocate myself some Nyra time #but anyway I think a part of that is the big timeskip & the way that nyra's character changes without much focus on that development #i understand why they didn't do it & idk what other plot points they could have fit in to bulk up episodes that could've developed her more #so i get it but it would have been nice imo to develop nyra some more esp in regards to motherhood & deciding to fulfill her duties

[violetclarity]

The problem with my coworkers having seen me absolutely Going Through It while reading The Golden Enclaves is that now they all want to read the Scholomance trilogy, which would be fine (great, even) except if my coworker starts calling it a girl power story while completely ignoring the social commentary and deep morality of it steam will come out of my ears

#the scholomance #the scholomance trilogy #yeah I loved that every important character except for orion was female but I also have more advanced analytical abilities than this woman #this is the coworker who thinks that twilight is feminist because 'bella gets super powerful at the end' #who (by the same token) told me this week that she didn't like mockingjay because katniss had been so powerful and then got so weak #mockingjay wasn't my fave either but at least I'm able to recognize that katniss didn't 'get weak' #she was UNDERSTANDABLY TRAUMATIZED and dealing with A FUCKTON OF GRIEF AND TRAUMA which impacted her character #also this woman is 50. FIFTY. #which I say only bc one would HOPE that being FIFTY and having a MASTER'S DEGREE and WORKING IN A LIBRARY #that at some point in your life you would have picked up more complicated literary analysis skills #but no. twilight is feminist because bella becomes really powerful at the end. #sure. yeah. why not. I mean like no shade if you like twilight but it can't by any stretch of the imagination be called feminist ANYWAY #she liked spinning silver so I think she'll probably like it but I am gonna have to Brace Myself for those conversations #which is ironic bc all I want to do is discuss these books

[blaiddraws]

If i were to make a fangame would i be allowed to include the wormy boys(and girl?) Context: thinking about creating a fangame set in the far future[300-9000 years] based on a mental thought experiment i did based on, how life would evolve on an completely irradiated world, and its adaptations and quirks(assuming the first problem of genetic fuckery, and biological fuckery gets solved by more lead dense cell walls)

sounds like an interesting premise! however i think i would have to decline, no hard feelings. It just doesn't seem like the kind of setting the worm squad would have a good time in. yanno? it doesn't fit the spirit (??) of the au, for lack of a better description.

but if you wanna make characters/creatures Based Off Them then i have no problem with it at all!

#answered #again no hard feelings! in fact i appreciate you asking! #i just... hmm. #it seems very. #disconnected? from the vibes. #if that makes sense #(i am also very much. uh. autism #there are some things that i just. i like them a Certain Way and if they get too far from that Certain Way it makes me go :/ #and also the. uhhhhhh. dragon vibes. very protective of My Stuff to an incredible degree #I'm fine with fanart and fic and all that because generally there's nothing that's like. so far Out There #that it's uncomfortable for me. like when someone draws fanart for a specific au #they're doing it for That AU. which has a specific premise and vibes. therefore. shrug emoji #REGARDLESS i don't ever really talk about this because even if there is stuff that bothers me #(which is rare btw. the few instances I've gotten are just asks.) #i can still appreciate the effort and time the person put into it #but if i can say no before the person spends all that effort. why wouldn't i? #i wouldn't want you to create something that would get you a lackluster response #if that makes any sense at all lmao. sorry about the rant in the tags) #(TL;DR I'm weird and i like my things a certain way and the premise of that fangame is just a little too far from the certain way i like) #(but again. i am glad you asked. and i really hope you understand there are no hard feelings here and i am not. like. #upset or mad or uncomfortable or blaming you or whatnot)

[lily-on-the-fence]

Me, talking to a cis friend about Harry Potter: honestly, the films are... *okay* if you stream them but I wouldn't touch the books with a barge pole.

Random classmate, 2 seconds later: harry potter? Oh you HAVE to read the books they're so much better and blah blah blah

#so frustrating #I told my friend about some of the shit that's in the books and she gave me big oof vibes #So hopefully she listens #also #do not understand why a master's degree student is wearing a deathly hallows necklace every day #harry potter #jk rowling

[snickerdoodlles]

there's something magnificently terrible in stories that are so afraid of death that they'll invent a horror a thousand times worse and call it mercy

#this is why i watch so much stuff from china and thailand >:TTT #well. this was a read but its...so western #thailand and china have their own issues but they do not carry that stark black and white morality predominantly christian cultures do #this is a story thats supposed to be predominantly about hope and mercy and instead its just horrifying #in condemning violence and death completely they instead made a story where any level of violence or death is held to the same degree #and its 'heroes' need to avoid them at all costs #to the point where the lengths they take are more horrifying than the 'terrible' choices theyre avoiding #this isnt new im just reeling extensively #years of primarily asian media and then i try coming back to some western stories and. PHEW. #no thank you #im going to go cradle farscape instead now #a story of fuckups yet it understands compassion and faith in the face of bleakness so much more #q*

[braskide]

i wanted to make a cute "oh yuna as your cute gf 😊” but then i started thinking about x-2.5 and will and what they showed us of her relationship with ti ( i will never accept that as canon but it has interesting points ), and how it shows / my main verse has every point showing how a relationship with her is actually super hard to maintain when you think about it, how many hardships to overcome to actually be together. how much the ~leftover of her trauma shows in the relationships with other people, how changed she is as a woman, how she keeps herself busy with everything / her new 'high summoner' routine, all to not.. . think.. .? all to not face what growing up in the way she did has damaged for her. being with someone that holds her shoulders and makes her face reality. realizing that she cannot outrun her buried demons. understanding that cherishing someone is okay again. that it does not need to be so ephemeral anymore. that life can be worth living again. that the guilt she feels for turning her life around instead of processing her traumas can also be overcome. she's a lot of work, actually.

#outofcharacter. #i always think like. why did nojima think that ti and yu breaking up / parting ways the way they did made sense in x-2.5 / will. #and although i think it's such absolute crap and dog poop - #i do understand why ; to some degree? #like obviously she's a grown person now and so is he ; #getting used to the new life and what not — #resuming her life after basically having a 'fuck everything' sphere hunter arc. #and even then it didn't work cause she was still stuck dealing and facing her demons LMFAO. #although ; when she stops being a sphere hunter.. . she's really left with her demons huh. #so i understand why she could be a lot of work to navigate. #why she requires a lot of attention and care. #i love her actually. .. and she deserves to rest. #she deserves to let herself have anything for herself!!! ! #get in touch with the side of her that wants to live!!! ! that wants to experience everything good about life and love and companionship !!

[upsidedowneggo]

PROTECT MIKE WHEELER! ✊✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿

so true my dude. Hope he shows up in season 4 at some point cos he hasn't been here yet. There's a dude who looks like him but he doesn't have any of his like, personality or characteristics or energy or like any of the previously established character development associated with Mike, so like if Michael Wheeler could show up at some point that'd be swell.

#stranger things #st4 #mike wheeler #LOOK i did like the season i thought the storytelling was great #but i think the characterisation really suffered for the sake of plot #also like the hawkins gang is immaculate but the cali gang is a hot mess #i understand why the hawkins gang are doin the things theyre doin and theyre compelling and interesting #cali gang is nothing #this love triangle shit is so stupid #like yall want byler so bad but i think your overlooking that it requires will to steal his sisters boyfriend??? #like its a mess and also like objectively the most boring possible plot for any of these characters #mike will and el are some of the more compelling characters on the show who have experienced the most trauma and upheaval #and i think this teamup could have been really interesting from the perspective of mike's anxiety over percieving himself as the caregiver #to el and will and too a degree i think they see him that way as well but hes also just a kid and he cant be there for everyone all the tim #like if he looks out for everyone who looks out for him #especially cos weve had seasons worth of content regarding will and el's trauma but we've never explored that with mike #but instead of doing any of that were doing more surface level relationship bullshit that we've already done #like i lowkey think this season broke will and mike as characters a bit like when you get to a point where they watch a man die and then #bury the body and they have no significant reaction to that YOUVE DONE SOMETHING WRONG #like how is that not an extremely traumatic event?? but no we just move past it i guess??